I'm not Wimpy! =X

2011-06-24T16:39:00.002+08:00

4mths and on.... wow wow wow! time flies like nobody's business!! looking back, i wan time to STOP pleaseeeeeeeee! lol~ really, time flew pass without much notice, at least for me... it has been probably the best and yet one of the most trying periods of my life. juggling sot, ministry, work, assignments, was probably insanity to most~ yet, it has really made the best out of me each day.

recently, it dawns upon me to look at my current form, my past form and my future form. it has really become less of myself and more of others. more of placing others before my own desires and needs. yes, i still have my 'selfish' wants but yet, it seemed more easier to cast them aside as compared to the past. the tendency to get worked up becomes less. rather, at the moment, it is indefinite to become indifferent but i start to wonder if there was another way that i could have went wrong. lol~ feels nostalgic...

life really's gotta be progressive.. i ponder so much that i become worrisome about my future after sot and other things that i can sapped in this recent weeks but god has never failed to comfort me despite my stubbornness... really, as you begin to pour yourself out and give, like how the word says that water and you'll be watered, just prove to be so true. still, i craved very very much for a clear direction of what's after... this life, lets make it count, to live a life of legacy... ultimately, we all have certain desires and dreams and we badly sought and fight for but, what is really next when we fulfill them? people pursue money, status, fame, success, career, family etc. yet, what happens after that? maybe to some, it is farfetched to even ponder about this, but we just haf to put on our visionary binoculars to look ahead. maybe then, one may realise that it is more than all this... we all have this insatiable nature within us and we're unable to fill them with a true purpose, it will be more of money after you gotten money, more of status after you gotten status, so on. the main key, is to leave a legacy, and its up to each of us to define that...

as my pursuit to step up to my next level, i just want to remain sober of what makes me to be. i know i've been given much and thus, with the little i have, i trust that it will be made much. but no matter how insignificant it seems to most now, the vital point is to keep on keeping on-which is the hardest part. sometimes, it can be seemed a folly, but as long the very godly peace is in my heart, its worth it... our humanistic behaviour tells me is dumb to wait and its really tough to be patient but if i rashly rush in, maybe it will be yet another loop i needa go again to move forward... i agree with pst that as we mature, we really learn to pace ourselves better, or rather, slower because god is not in the wind, nor fire nor earthquake, but in the still small voice, reserved for those who wait on Him.

yes, i admit im inadequate, im afraid, very afraid somemore, extremely intimidated but yet, looking back, no god, no joshua, no nothing....

when you look me in the eyes

2011-06-24T16:36:00.001+08:00

If the heart is always searching,
Can you ever find a home?
I've been looking for that someone,
I'll never make it on my own.
Dreams can't take the place of loving you,
There's gotta be a million reasons why it's true

When you look me in the eyes,
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes.

How long will I be waiting,
To be with you again
Gonna tell you that I love you,
In the best way that I can.
I can't take a day without you here,
You're the light that makes my darkness disappear.

More and more, I start to realize,
I can reach my tomorrow,
I can hold my head high,
And it's all because you're by my side.

2011-04-25T16:33:00.002+08:00

i was just chilling out ytd night sleeping in for many many hours aft going for a small mini gathering cum celebration at CM-PB at dempsey. then i was reading something that caught my attention even later i saw something shocking! @.@

okok, taking the explicit matter aside, the heart of the matter was it amazes one that despite failures, strengths can be retained and flaws can be reduced or cast aside bit by bit. i saw a beautiful story foretold which touched me. like i shared earlier on, despite all in all, nothing in me will change the way i will ever heart the woman i hold. it was more magical was that the person wrote in a manner that surpasses," i will never ever let go..." a love that gives will bring about such revelation to one...

i wrote on my fb on sat aft my convo coz it dawned upon me when i saw a note that "some people are just around to rub shoulders with you but there are also those who are willing to go with you through it all..." i vividly remembered that once, someone having received much, not having to pay back his/her gratitude, sought to take yet again. i don't know what was going through the mindset but yet, it only further sadden or disappointed me. seeing such a situation, it only brought a sense of despair because even though there're givers and receivers in this world, there's also the term that what goes around will come around... without remorse, i will say that though we were all strangers to begin with, the saddest part will be having to return to a state of that beginning.

as i graduate, i will want to hold on to the bonds i treasure when i told my close mates that if we don't upkeep the friendships/relationships, it will be lost over time. i think it was through thick and thin, we value one another. an atmosphere of celebration hid a tinge of sombre feeling. those that weren't really close ties suddenly became valuable (apart from those really hi-bye to begin with). thanks and gratitude were exchanged but not casually because who knows when will we cross paths again...

our human selfish nature really deteriorated our society and how we treat one another... sometimes, even being taught to love in our own religion, we still cant escape this fact that we take people for granted. we choose to pick 'fire-fighting' instead of prevention and later realise that maybe it was too late after all? what to do? if only i chose to heart wisdom but given so, having more wisdom, to me at least, can be a scary part but still i will still want more wisdom because i really so much want to do the right things, say the right things at the right time.

I learnt that its really much easier to trust in what's convenient and easiest thing at hand to use it but probably it will not yield the best results but still get the job done. but maybe if i be still and wait and ponder, it will help... thus when people say they will not be like so and so, its really easier said than done and we're all guilty of this matter. because sometimes, certain things have been ingrained into us and we commit the same old mistakes that others have done before and we wonder why (if we ever realise).

really, let us, at least for me, to learn to CHOOSE LOVE... at least the motivation will set forth a new dimension... on sat, my buddy insisted that its firm that im the one at fault when something went wrong some time back. it was easy to want to defend but i said without a second thought that yup, regardless what, its my fault despite that eagerness to prove my point. without a doubt, despite so, if i choose love, though in the eyes of everyone that i was wrong, it will be alright because god is judge and not me. we want to prove a million points and seriously, whatever to our points and crap. why try so hard!?!? if my motivation was love, that says it all... one day, the account is answered not to man and even i try so hard, it amounts to nothing... Let's choose love...

Milestone

2011-04-23T12:36:00.003+08:00

Commonly, lately, I've been seeing people doing Reflections on their lives and of course, they're always beautiful works and words that exemplify their 'story so far'. Thus, entering 2011 2nd quarter, I've seeing milestones or reflections of my life. This has been thus far a little tipsy turvy road but yet a road filled with god's awesome hand and works of grace and blessing, at least for my menial life.

Moving into 2011, has brought about great intensity, rashness but yet grace abounded when all seemed to be in a slur. March, church moving her 3rd milestone of possessing the land of Suntec, brought huge applauses and resounding sounds of thunder and triumph which was a sight to behold and though many saw the celebration, really, how many people went through the plow and to see their tears and hard work in the field to see this awesome splendor. People who put in, will really have the deepest heartfelt love and joy in this momentous event. Though Ive not done much or barely, I saw how pastor went through the depths of the pit and betrayal and all forms of attack from every pOssible directions. Myself, having doing through a similar phase but not as this severity, could somewhat relate and seeing him sharing the little experiences with us in SOT, only brought me to my kneels to always learn that I'm just a meagre being. But if we learn to lean on Him, it becomes big coz you suddenly become a huge part.

Going to SOT has been incredible. Discipline is the main key to success. 2mths into this and I never feel an ounce of boredom nor dryness... Having gone through 4.5 years of part time studies whilst working, I thought I could manage it well but it's I thought better kind of thing. Lol~ easier said than done seriously. Thus far, I love school, mates and god even more coz Im taught of His unconditional love and sacrifice..

Finally, milestone no.1, today, I'm attending my university convocation! My heartfelt thanks to all that made it possible. It aren't easy but still, we pushed through! 2.5years diploma, 2years university! All those who made it possible, thank you. Of course, I thank a special someone that encouraged me to pursue this road of academics but sadly, unable to stay special but still, baby steps are important. Thanks too! ;) lastly I thank my god to see me through this 4.5 years and yet, unchanging, unfailing... Long but worth it!

You Are For Me

2011-04-17T23:30:00.011+08:00

YouTube - You Are For Me - Kari Jobe: "

So faithful
So constant
So loving and so true
So powerful in all you do

You fill me
You see me
You know my every move
and you love for me to sing to you

I know that you are for me
I know that you are for me
I know that you will never forsake me in my weakness
I know that you have come now, even if to write upon my heart
to remind me who you are

So patient So gracious
So merciful and true
So wonderful in all you do "

if music is the only thing left, it will be best tool to express to out feelings. the chorus burns deeply because even when we're weak, we can find strength. when we go thru valley experiences, we can still push thru and forward. to go through pruning thats only for our own good so we can only become better in the lord. i love god because i will fail, men will fail, we all will fail, our achievements will fail but He remains faithful and true. He's not a theology, not one that we cannot touch or feel. yet, in His sovereignty, He came to meet with us. to learn that nothing in this world attracts me anymore but only to live for His desires. nothing i sought will give me the satisfaction anymore because its only futile and neverending dissatisfaction after another. my friend told me that she's too nice and naive and her friends cant believe she's like that but amidst that, it dawn upon me that love propels us to do great "exploits" because Genuine love is real and true; one that doesnt lie or seek its own. what i can say, it causes one to do what's foolish in the eyes of others but beautiful in the sight of her beloved and herself. a love so true that only god has, to die for you and me. a god thats jealous for us to return to Him ultimately. i don't know if my love is true enough for Him but im learning. and i know that as i yield my own crown, it will become an everlasting love. if i have a chance to love someone again, this is still what i sought to. a love thats only true...

passion

2011-04-04T20:57:00.002+08:00

mon!!! finally, the drag is over >,< tiring... today, i was sitting in office calling den at abt 4+ before my meeting, i was just browsing through some video, as i browse through them, suddenly, it ignited a passion when i was abt 18...

i dunno why but whenever i see dance movies, videos, street dance or performance, there's just something in me that's being stirred... i still remember one of my bestie who was together with me when i was in choir (donkey years ago), went to join the church dance ministry and after he got in, i asked him about the audition and stuff. after he related to me how the audition went, i felt really intimidated... i always wondered if i had the groove, the vibes and the ability to pursue this thing called, Dance. after when i went NS, i was influenced by my mates to go clubbing and honestly speaking, i enjoyed it. the booze really helped me to realise my energy on the dancefloor though i strongly felt i was simply making a fool out of myself.

jus last year, someone close chanced upon me dancing despite me seldom stroding my clumsy moves and started questioning if i frequent clubs and if i often dance with girls :x i was confident whenever i had a glass or two but never really felt confident of myself showing to others unless they were really close to me and even so, i still had much reserves. this thought din linger much till last year end and most recently, for my company event. i shan't say much about it lest people think i boast >,< but they really gave me much encouragement in believing i had the flair for dancing. tho i dunno why or how, but it really felt good and i really feel like dancing and be trained to do so to better be equipped... i begin to think how can i improve the team's dance and how i wanna make things more creative and attractive. today, i just do not know why, but i went to the church website to see if there were still dance ministry despite us moving this ministry into a more professional platform, O school; taught by real professionals. it really excite me and i spoke to my colleague who encouraged me to do so as im not young anymore and that term alone kinda incited my "wrath" haha, to give it in a more serious thought.

thinking now, many people express their frustrations, feelings, emotions and heart through many avenues and dance is truly one of them. sometimes as i begin to pick up my guitar and sing, there can be a point that you feel that you stagnate and cant push higher. yet when i begin to dance, even on a small platform, it really feels good. it feels that those emotions that you cant show it through words being expressed out in actions and yet, gracefully... something where u mix ballet with hip-hop, a tinge of grace with a groove to it...

im still thinking of it and i remember a beautiful person wanting to pursue ballet again although it may seem difficult but still, if possible, and proper time managment, i really think its possible! ballet, beautiful, graceful, even the ugly duckling will evolve into a beautiful white swan... where boundaries are meant to be broken because you are the main character if you feel you are it. our agendas and pursuits in life thats shaped by the mediocracy of this world. i think ultimately, we all have just one life to live, make it count, worthwhile and lets not have any regrets :) peace.

tomorrow will be better, gambatte :Pp

being faithful

2011-04-03T18:55:00.010+08:00

sometimes a small argument allows one to set him/her thinking in depth. to recognise the core causes or issues in play. thinking though, i ponder again on Faithfulness and decided to search up the web for a full definition of it

Faithfulness Define Faithfulness at Dictionary.com: "1. strict or thorough in the performance of duty: a faithful worker. 2. true to one's word, promises, vows, etc. 3. steady in allegiance or affection; loyal; constant: faithful friends. 4. reliable, trusted, or believed. 5. adhering or true to fact, a standard, or an original; accurate: a faithful account; a faithful copy. 6. Obsolete . full of faith; believing."

Faithfulness: "Faithfulness : [ < Latin fides < assumed Indo-European bheidh- (to trust, have faith in, abide in)] The quality of being faithful. The word 'faithful' means loyal, full of faith or trust; firmly and resolutely sticking with a person, group, cause, belief, or idea, without waver."

looking through those definitions, and abstracted from the Latin translation, we see both are synonymous and i especially like the words by the Latin translation without waver.

constant or being consistent is the key to bringing stability. sometimes, if i could, i really hate it to be the bad guy in the story just to paint a clearer picture or bring the truth more blatantly to another person. we all have different sets of beliefs, values, perspectives and principles; yet it brings to my reminiscence of the world is one and you are one with it. irrational as one may seem or different; yet, using a critical analysis to resolve problems but with experience and maturity, ive learnt that there're times, i would rather sought to use a way that someone has used before and appeals to me to resolve an issue. therefore, listening is called an art because anyone can hear. moving on, there're times, many things are not so easy spoken out given the change in the situation and/or circumstances. even so, practising wisdom, the need to view one's position before reacting will certainly bring about greater management of a difficult situation.

sometimes, after much hurt is done, what's left is only 2 choices, to make amendments or simply ignore it as if nothing has happened and move on. if the former is chosen, for myself who went through, i only know one thing is for sure is, the need to really humble myself and constantly consciously remind myself of what im doing this for and the goal i seek. of course, choosing the latter, its indeed the easiest way out but, even so, god is a impartial god. one day, whatever we sow will surely reap and you'll have to learn to overcome either early or later in life. but so, it is easier to sought restitution or reconciliation early because, the wise is meek and humble and chooses the righteous way. no man is perfect still, but yet, the need to constantly reflect and think things through will help us to become better people. as i sought to forgive and forget, and yet, it takes time and patience and wisdom from the other party (if any) to show remorse, repentence, change, willing to make things right and love, to cover the past. one thing for sure is, the past is meant to be forgotten and forgiven but also serves as a reminder to never drop into the same pithole and make the same mistakes, otherwise, nothing has changed. you are still the same yesterday.

if one is eager, she will be willing. a willing attitude will give you 5 things:
a) Willingness releases the Ability in you to do the job.
b) Willingness gives you tremendous Energy.
c) Willingness brings with it Strategies.
d) Willingness makes you Teachable.
e) Willingness brings you the Blessings of god.

why do i constantly reiterate the importnace of faithfulness, humility, meekness and teachability? this is because, the cornerstone of a person's character is Faithfulness and respect is not mandated but it is really earned. one day, as you begin to move up in life, it is not about you ability to command people to work, but its really what you can do even more for your employees or subordinates. thats y, our attitude determines our altitude. the higher we go, the need to be even more willing to serve. our gifts and talents will usher us promotion but it take character to stay up there.

honestly speaking, having a better character is not for my own sake but should be everyone's goal to become a person of character. im longwinded but because i believe the need to be wise with my words, thinking and actions. you may think im selfish, im harsh but really, why do i bring myself to your level and compare? and really, i rather you come to my level and learn... its fun if someone walks together. there's no need for small mentalities but its important to grow at similar rates...

Breaking Through

2011-04-03T01:00:00.002+08:00

woah~ so long never blog liao~ guilty sia~ i wonder for a moment where my faithfulness went :X maybe i got no more supporters liao boohoo~ :( so many things changed and right now, its 22days away from my Uni convocation... time really flies and now even though after graduation n moving on a new phase, its simple incredible and unimaginable... im excited because, honestly, we all know, people move on to achieve their own success stories of their life, probably, it will be final time we can gather in such a time as this. i used to think what success mean and often, i hear a few of my friends asking me to define what success will mean. today, success often is being defined as having a high-flying job, well-remunerated job, a happy family, have big cars and big houses and so on. we really have our own definition of success and this will give us the motivation to move towards that direction we see ourselves going. for me, since a few years ago, i stongly believe for myself, success meant replicating myself and impacting the lives of others. often or even if you are reading, many will think alike that it sounds nonsensical or even rubbishly too full of myself. i don't know how or where to start but i always believe that success is making people feel success. seeing others able to achieve great heights, somewhat seems more fulfilling than me really being in that position of theirs. i used to think that if one day i become a high-flyer earning tons of money, i will be really happy. and yet, i find that thats not what i really want. no doubt that im confident of making a mark in life but yet, if given a choice, i think i rather be a mentor and help to others to guide them to their dreams. seeing people lives change has always make me happier than life itself. i don't believe that i will be happier if i led a selfish, self-centered life whereby i only live for me and myself and only I. even if people think that im foolish but who are they to judge? thus, taking a huge leap to take up a entirely bold step of faith into SOT was something i look forward to. everyday, maybe its a drag to wake up at 6am, but everyday, i have brand new insights, encounters, knowledge/information, revelations. my character and core values are constantly being challenged. my flaws are being brought out and tested. to my amazement, i only realize how weak i am, how incapable i am and how foolish i am and can be. and yet, through it all, i know i can lean on God's strength. taking a step at a time helps me to focus on strengthening my strengths and reducing my errs which i commonly fall in. and even so, it has been so trying at times to crucify my weakness and my carnal mind/flesh. during the beginning, i felt very strong in my spirit that this 2011 will be a time of breakthrough and a big one although im not sure of what it is and yet, moving on next week, a confirmation thru a prophesy and word of wisdom helped to reconfirm that feeling that was put into me. "Change, Wait, what you've been waiting for will be restored." these words really resurrected me and gave me life. i remembered few months ago, i gave away my vision and yet these words touched me deeply and im just simply withe gratitude to god... sometimes we think that we did foolish things that maybe god wont forgive us but yet, so often, god is simply waiting for us to return back to Him, just like the story of the prodigal son. i just love the story and how god exemplifies His grace and love for us even though we are rebellious and selfish. thinking it through, i only know that ive made the right decision and to sacifice and devote this 6mths even if many thinks im foolish. ultimately, im in it and not them, thus they probably will never know what it feels like. one word: Amazing.

2011-03-14T20:06:00.001+08:00

the story so far

2011-01-21T16:55:00.002+08:00

going through trials, challenges, tests and uncountable issues has time and time again test us. it has never been easy and sometimes it makes him wonder if everything is meant to be? he looked with envy whenever he walk down streets at others and wonder why is everything so difficult and so hard and near impossible. yes, he couldnt agree more with her that the issues they faced supercede (see the enforced word) the happy moments they share. indeed every individual is unique and definitely different but those challenges they often faced, prove to be more of a stumbling block and each time, it gets harder to overcome...

even so, many a times, even a compromise seems like a challenge. both of them, equally hotheaded, stubborn, easily-irritable... omg~ character clashed? seems like what u will get in a movie huh? lol~ ultimately, the world will only become a better place if you or me exclude ourselves right? since this way it will move towards perfection. we are all imperfect beings after all! still, the smile on her face wipes off every sadness and disappointments. the smile that dawns upon the stars. threatens to put all fear and despair at bay... (i love to use an apple a day, keeps the doctor at bay - a smile a day, keeps the pressure away! :p) anyway, given the imperfection they both faced, its inevitable that frictions will spark. ultimately, y win the battle if one will only lose the war?

moving in tat direction, slowly but surely, his female counterpart seeks to change to gain his approval but change is such a drag... he feels uptight, scared, fearful but deep down, a stir to hope against all hopes, to believe amidst all unbelief, to have faith even when all has failed again and again. the woman, to keep on improving and change, to wan to show herself worthy, to prove herself like a champ... both stumbles when the expectation and the stakes gets really high... both are experts in their fields but why cant they get out of the fix they always drop into? why have i went wrong? they both begin to wonder with no answers in mind... lost, disillusioned, detached and the space between them grows...

she wants to be a keeper, yet dont know how to? given all that pride, she holds back... why would she be following her damn brain and not her heart? the opposite happens for him!! argh~ clash yet again... yet both know deep down, the immerse feelings that draws strength for one another... it arent easy huh? he wonders because, her smile, her tenacity, her charm, her hands is his everything already... unknown to himself, she has become part of him... likewise for her, suddenly, reality strikes and he becomes constant on her mind as well... ultimatly, the real test for both of them has yet to come... sometimes both of them wonder, where's our honeymoon? OFTEN PPL SAY, honeymoon is part 1, clashes are part 2 but why are they in part 2? weird huh... still, love propels us to try again and again. thats y its still the greatest of them all along faith and hope.

god is interesting and his ways are higher than everyone's... working to please one another can b tough and thus we all have issues with one another. we avoid them but they come n hunt n cling on us... we are all "tuned" to judge, assume quickly because its how our world is shaped, yet, if we take time slowly, we may see the beauty in each other. what other people's real intentions are... if ppl we hold close to and have known for awhile, still carries the same hostility like strangers, have we spent the time to know each other gone futile? understanding and listening needs to go hand in hand to become active listening. even so, our head processes faster than the other person's speech. maybe in return of listening, ourselves can learn something new? something that we ourselves can incorporate? sometimes we can avoid? if one has to be stubborn, it would really be worth if he/she is stubborn for the right reasons, a reason, you know you are willing to give up or die for. this makes you and me a person who has an attitude, the right kind. at least, we are remembered for a worthy cause.

Who am I

2011-01-12T12:39:00.001+08:00

Who am I? That the Lord of all the earth,
Would care to know my name, Would care to feel my hurt.
Who am I? That the bright and morning star,
Would choose to light the way, For my ever wondering heart.

Not because of who I am. But because of what you've done.
Not because of what I've done. But because of who you are.

I am a flower quickly fading, Here today and gone tomorrow.
A wave tossed in the ocean, A vapor in the wind.
Still you hear me when I'm calling, Lord you catch me when I'm falling,
And you told me who I am.
I am yours.
I am yours.

Who am I? That the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love And watch me rise again
Who am I? That the voice that calm the sea,
Would call out through the rain, And calm the storm in me.

Not because of who I am. But because what of youve done.
Not because of what I've done. But because of who you are.

Precious

2010-12-23T10:01:00.002+08:00

sometimes have everything become like a norm that we become complacent, expecting that it will and always be the same way, like a norm and not realizing that we have unknowingly taking things for granted already...

so much as companies offered discounts and sales to boast profit margins, locally, it has become a norm that w/o sales, the numbers tend to dwindle and today, even myself, i look forward to IT fairs for buys. reason being, that it is imbued into us that the notion itself 'sales' is what we look for commonly to give us a better reason to buy.

even so said, treating gestures and kindness of others, which are given out of love and concern, as a norm because it has always been there unchanging and consistent, is something that shouldn't been committed. at times, that complacency will bound to sip in given the fact that we're all humans but time to time, we needa put a conscious effort to review ourselves if we've done in a similar capacity to deserve these gestures showered upon us. for whatever we sow, we will surely reap. give and it will surely be given back, good measures pressed down, shaken together and running over.

and so, even so said, all of us are guilty from time to time in committing this error. some of us, with such goodness overflowing, continue to want even more without looking what we can offer ourselves. "you can give without loving, but can never love without giving", how true is this saying... and when the goodness begins to flow away from us, we begin to doubt, question or even feel betrayed. maybe we should stand in the mirror and look at ourselves and ponder, did i go wrong in any ways; or is there anything that i could have done or done more.

as i begin to ponder on this fact, it came to my remembrances a hard truth that was told to be by my brother," life is like a piece of painting, we are creating our own painting. people that come into our lives are here to add strokes to this life-painting of ours and it is up to each individual to determine how much (long) he/she wants others to draw on his/her painting." indeed, god created each and everyone of us for one purpose and a great destiny but yet, He gave us a CHOICE to choose.

at the end of the day, why so often, we want to wait to lose something or on the verge of losing it; to realize its true importance/significance/value. A friendship/relationship/kinship has a pressing call to be protected and cherished. past failures are here to remind us of the pitfalls, dangers, entrapment, mistakes we made etc to not fall into them anymore but do we all these past failures serve its true purpose? ultimately, we ourselves make these vital decisions and to some, it may seem small but our faithfulness to these small details are actually the things that are being tested.

our thought-life shapes our world; today, instead, the world/society/people shape us that we forget our real identity or what we call social-norms. Greatness comes with failures and not succumbing to social-norms because great people simply do not do what's normal and it takes sacrifice and a price to pay.

2010-10-25T14:27:00.001+08:00

No qualms about it, none of us is perfect to begin with but yet, with this very fact of our imperfection, it makes all worthy and interesting. Learning to cope, to compromise, to learn and to love is the very essence of everything; be it a relationship or a friendship. Indeed, relationships; be it platonic or not, precedes all businesses/ministries. And ultimately, the kind of person we all become is determined by the kind of people we invest our time in, or otherwise, we mix with. Over periods of time, every individual have their own varying levels of threshold and limits; given our irrationality, love propels us beyond these limiters we have or place. Yet, so often, even so said, when all the little efforts put in goes unreciprocated, unappreciated; slowly but surely, that very hand awaiting to be clapped will dissipate.

So often, people say time will tell. Indeed, to a certain extent, this may be true. More importantly, majority use that to excuse themselves, waiting for something to happen. We do believe in mystical/magical things when we were young but we also know that such things maybe farfetched or merely do not exist now when we are older? We spend so much time waiting and when that thing that we have so much hoped for comes, we do not know what to do and how to react. Too little time? Afraid? Taken aback? Shocked? And thus when we put our hand into the plough, we still want to look back, take a step back, take a seat in the couch and carry on our old lifestyles or maybe stay in that comfort zone of ours? Maybe yes, maybe no. Life simply may have too much regrets and given a choice, I choose to move on and not to have more regrets anymore. At the very least, someone once said,” when I’m old on my death bed, I do not wish that I have any regrets that I know that I could have done and not do it… because now its simply too late…” If need be, fail your way to success because at least, you are trying. Reason being, the day one stops trying, it will be the day he/she starts dying, literally.

Time and time again, different people walk in and out of our lives leaving big and small footprints in our hearts. The extent of impart they leave is entirely dependent on how much we want them to. Ultimately, first it takes two hands to clap as one hand only beats the air. It took me 26 good years of my life to understand the essence of the term ‘friends’ but it doesn’t need much of me to understand the importance to cherish and treasure someone that I want to love. The greatest Man said that to abide in faith, hope and love and the greatest of them all is truly, love. Faith – to believe, Hope – to look forward, Love – the very foundation. Truly, one can give without loving but cannot love without giving. Love propels us to do the unimaginable.

At this very moment, I need not tell myself what I can do, what I can give or what I can do more because I know I fulfill what’s far and beyond myself. Maybe to some, these are just norms but to me, I beat my chest and say I exceeded myself once more and I’m glad I did because most importantly I tried and kept trying. Indeed, where your treasure is, there your heart will also be because when you have the heart, you will have the time.

Through it all, I think I’m still very humane. My heart is very alive and beating, a heart made of flesh and not of stone. I guess I also need someone that cares for me, appreciates me and loves me for I am too? I do not know but yes, I won’t play god because I don’t have that unfailing and unconditional love… There’s just too much about life that’s sad and negative that I know I do not want to be in that state at all and thus the reason for my positivity and my faith. I still will try but sometimes, too much waiting and too much giving and it doesn’t comes back the way it should be makes one wonder where has all that gone to. Little kind acts of gestures, thanks and love go a long way. Words of encouragement are oxygen to the soul and so often, we are brought up in a culture/environment that tells us the opposite. Therefore, maybe it could be quite important that we learn to esteem others better than ourselves.

Still remember lately someone told me that maybe I was the one immature and I began to wonder if that was the issue I had and yet, pondering over and over this matter, I wonder if it was the case because maturity comes with accepting responsibilities? “Therefore, let no one despise your youth, but be an example… in word, in conduct, in love, in spirit.” Yes, I agree I’m more long-winded, overly sensitive, more demanding, irrational and probably very different from the rest but could it be better and different from the rest rather than going through the same motion as the rest? Put our differing expectations, perceptions, comparisons, differences at home and keep them far far away; simply because every single is different and unique in his/her own ways.

WOOT!

2010-10-01T14:50:00.003+08:00

been a long time i since updated my blog... man... talk abt faithfulness :x guess its abt time to start the habit of blogging again... 2 mths... wat a rollercoaster ride once again... one quote to surmise these 2 mths," humans, the source of problems; as well as the source of solutions..."

foremost, personal aspects, tough, extremely tough... "you cant gain something without first paying the price." this very essence of it is just nerve-breaking. for once, when making critical decisions come in play... you jus wish that there would be an easy way out and suddenly its all like extremes and far-fetching... at times, it mayb comforting to know some people are still on your side and some are not. circumstances seriously purges your friendships/relationships and real ones stick by you... you noe tt you neednt do much, even when you are wrong, they dont shoot or gun you down but instead, learn to share your sentiments and have at least, slight empathy or try to pull u to a macro-view.

i still remember, jus recently, i knew something amiss was going on alrdy and yet instead of making assumptions/accusations or even want to be fast to correct, i readjusted my stance abt the entire issue. reason being, a good leader accomodates even thought his/her people makes mistakes. this very essence came to my reminiscence. you know that although he/she did wrong, instead of being judgemental or quick to correct, you love them still even they are wrong and you think of ways to guide them and help them to see and learn... as such, thru this eventful incident, i was taught to be more gracious and to love him/her no matter what. the old me, rash, muddleheaded, judgemental, quick-tempered, hot tempered. yes im still like tt but instead, it took me to review and take a small step back to think and recompose my stance and thoughts. indeed love is patient, kind and long-suffering...

tt aside, im putting things down and trying to take new things up alrdy because i know im not a model and good leader... i love my people, no doubt about it but sadly, im not gd enuff to be on top because it takes character and consecration which i dont think i have 'em. still, i love you all and will always be there for every single one that i know you treasure me as much i do... mayb not yet, mayb not ready, mayb afraid, mayb too hard, or simply not good enuff i guess... remember, you guys are what gives me strength to carry on...

(b)
緊緊擁抱唯一的你
無可救藥的堅定
就算世界與我為敵
我也願意
我什麼都願意

alrighty! time for me to hit back at my work... i was extremely disappointed about someone with something and it has affected me so adversely tt im gonna work so hard now. im very sorry because you just offended me tt bad tt i feel extremely sorry for you. yes, you may think its for the betterment of me but sadly, its so so wrong.... :)

我的小小世界

2010-08-20T11:13:00.002+08:00

在当你的离去
我的小小世界
一个腻补不了
的悲伤的空缺

你从我十指间
菘开了你双手
深深伤痛我心
似坠入常恶梦

我的小小世界
因爱过而完美
我不会再忧郁
放胆勇敢去爱

新世界新开始
一场戏一场梦
以从恶梦醒来
我不在害怕了

couple of guys came and tell me that this sounded emo-ish but tat was not my original intentions when i composed the poem. so! i added to stanzas to make it different! heheh~ :)

另个你的靠近
和双温柔的手
再次点燥我心
让我截然不同

你脸孔你笑容
溶化小小世界
我不想放开你
请也不放开我

2010-08-16T16:45:00.002+08:00

ive been wondering about my life this couple of months as i put on the veil on my 4.5 years of both work and study life. i think it definitely has been a tiring but both long and short journey that i have traversed. so much so much mixed emotions and feelings that i cant help but fill extremely overwhelmed... i think many of my fellow friends feel likewise...

i have been strayed away from my normal life and entered a state of oblivion to everything that's around me. leading purely by how i feel and what i thought was alright. moving in circles maybe? probably i guess. doing so many stupid and silly things and sometimes i feel so empty and queasy. yet the more i think about it, i more i plunge deeper... is there really a route out of my solid state of mind, my mind tells to walk out, my emotions tells of otherwise...

as i write this entry, although jus hours ago, i made up my mind to make a firm decision, it seems all weak all over again. fear grapples my mind, my soul trembles, my heart waned... little did i know that holding on is so, so difficult. when you know whats at the end of the tunnel, you saw that very glimpse of light, and as you lunged forward, you came to realized, the path seems longer than it looked. reality? dreaming? subconscious? sober? sombre? faint? so many questions but with only one answer, Trust....

i just want to hole up in my cloest, maybe under my duvel. where i can hide away from reality. reality? mayb not, probably from thinking and thinking deep. how true it is that, it is easier to use your mind to help others and end of the day, with the same conditions maybe, it seemed so difficult... take me out of this deep well, out from the depths of the earth, the depths of my world, the depths of my oblivion, the depths of solid state of mind, to help me believe again...

2010-08-03T11:11:00.000+08:00

fear creeps in
a kind all afraid of
moments like this
a well without depths

choices made
inflicts or edifies
sometimes is unknown
despite all technicalities

will regret set in
little we wonder
await that very glimpse
to carry me through...

2010-07-06T16:26:00.002+08:00

a lesson without pain is meaningless

for you cannot gain something without sacrificing something else in return

but once you have overcome it and made it your own

you can gain an irreplaceable fullmetal heart...

*don't look away from each death/failure, look straight ahead and never forget...

Emptiness

2010-07-05T17:04:00.003+08:00

"The Seven Deadly Sins of human:
Lust, Greed, Sloth, Gluttony, Envy, Wrath & Pride.

Excessive want will destroy anyone... but those are same desires necessary to understand what it means to be human again"

- hiromu arakawa

the fallen nature of us, human beings encompasses these attributes within us. and yet amidst these imperfections, we know we are always found lacking. we search high and low, far and wide; to fill these emptiness or 'lackings'. so often found taking the form of the 7 sins.

jus a random thought of it and find it interesting to put an entry to this :)

Giving

2010-06-22T13:32:00.002+08:00

as usual, the chc saga rants on and on....

sometimes, when i read 'em on forums and blogs abt how people demean my church, my leaders and my members, it angers and saddens me. so often, i would love to rebute them but indeed, rebukes are for the wise and not for fools.

it is really laughable that people today, wants the churches to come clean with every dollar that they spent on. no doubt, it is necessary that churches come clean and be transparent about it but when one looks up in the forums and blogs on their displeasures and anger. it has become so funny because although we give, we want to know EXACTLY where the funds go to. even if transparency, people keep digging and digging and criticising and make assumptions that there's sure some form of discrepencies and fraud going on. i have to agree that nothing pains us especially when fellow christians join in the fray.

Giving, where the bible states clearly that we're simply STEWARDS of our finances. we are entitled to the 90% after paying our tithes. even so, we're called stewards. although investigations are still going on, people reiterate that they want to know every single penny the church uses and stuff like that. as stewards, do you question your master's intentions? draw from the example that if you have a maid, does your maid inquire why do you do certain things? it is really laughable when we as stewards insinuate that we're now MASTERS of the same mammon that we have given. even so, the church is simply a medium we give to god. at the end of the day, arent we giving and entrusting our finances to god's hands? remember, whatever we give, will be surely given back to us right? don't get me wrong on this, if the church is found fradulent, are you afraid that the church will be able to abscond and not face anything? remember, Vengence is god's. as a man sows, he will surely reap. let reward/judgement come at His timing and not yours! don't play god. the end of the day, we're simply stewards of our finances and merely looking after it. a steward is a servant not a master.

i would like to say a word for my church and her leadership. more than a decade, i ve attended chc. my life, truly is a testimony of His grace and His very own church. my life would be still in a despair if not for the people and teachings. i see the good, the bad, the ugly. i admit tat i stop attending for a couple of years in between and it has indeed allowed me to see the ugly more. people ask me, how do i maintain a clear line as a christian with my friends, i simply tell them it is because i learn and apply what i learn in church. i learn integrity, honesty, discipline, character, attitude and morals. something that many will say will be taught in school and home. But i behest that i cultivated them into fruits of my life when i was in church. today i learn the importance of family, friends and love not because im compelled to but because i was shown that in church. i was taught that i can be succesful and a role model wherever i am in church. i was taught to be loving and generous and learn to give a helping hand in church rather than to only learn to fend for myself; me, myself and i when i was working. i learnt about backstabbing and politics at a tender age of 20 and because i learn to repay good with evil when i was 17 that i turned these backstabbers into my friends despite what they have done. what i learnt over the decade, brought me to be who i am today and gave me a dream, a vision and a hope for the future. faithful readers would know that an outcast, someone whose parents have already given up hope on, has moved to a different stage today. not because he was determined or something magical, or miraculously happened; but because the love in the church, was shared to him. i learnt that through giving, not jus i cant be given back, but i cant impact someone. inspite of my difficulties and trials, i know i can use them to help someone as well.

Righteousness

2010-06-21T09:28:00.003+08:00

wondered how often, we, knowing what's right and whats wrong, become quick to judge, criticize, pinpoint, correct and become cynical, overtime become sensitive to every little errs. all this denotes from the righteousness within us. this is equivalent to what's called "self-righteousness".
i still rem when i jus became a christian over a decade ago. it seemed that my world suddenly had "rules" governing it. suddenly, you become aware of the DOs and DONTs. things that weren't right, you wanna attest to the new-found faith, to do what's right. then i began to push what i believed to others. as i began to abstain, i expected people closed to me to move in the same direction. it was so wrong and foolish. i began to criticize and become cynical especially of what my parents and my closed friends did. i would "preach" to them and enter into arguments because of differing views and perspectives. sadly, one would know that these bonds began cracking...

Matt 5 teaches us the beattitudes which are attitudes we should have as we progress in our christian walk. in Verses 6, "Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness,For they shall be filled" where the corresponding verse 20, "For I say to you, that unless your righteousness exceeds the righteousness of the scribes and Pharisees, you will by no means enter the kingdom of heaven." whereby to enter heaven, we gotta seek righteousness, and yet, pastor Tan pointed out in verse 7, "Blessed are the merciful, For they shall obtain mercy." why?

later as you read on, jesus reiterated that he came not to abolish the laws of moses but to establish it. in order to, with these laws serving to govern us from the right and wrongs, it is through our mercy towards others that will determining one's righteousness. so often, we become quite to judge and correct but without being gracious. we jump at the fact especially when we're wronged instead of giving others the benefit of doubt and be gracious. once again, our righteousness is expressed through our mercy, not through exercising justice.

as i go through the book of wisdom (Proverbs), i feel extremely blessed again and again because, indeed, as we heart wisdom, it will surely heart to us.
Prov 11:12-13 "He who is devoid of wisdom despises his neighbor, But a man of understanding holds his peace. A talebearer reveals secrets, But he who is of a faithful spirit conceals a matter."
Prov 17:9 "he who covers a transgression seeks love, but he who repeats a matter separates friends."
-these verses served as a reminder for me to always be gracious. during the Asia Conference, pastor kong reminded us that a leader is accepting even when his/her people makes wrong decisions. and John C.Maxwell writes that," a good leader is gracious, gives people the benefit of doubts."

Even said, time and time again, despite having the knowledge/understanding, we slip into the wrong side of the river and commit the same old mistakes because we're human after all. and yet, it will become an asset as we keep reminding ourselves and best of all, always practising what we learn. it definitely takes 3 months to cultivate a good habit and 3 days to learn a bad one. i was speaking to a confide and as he began explaining to me about something in having grace even if the other party is of significance, it still vivid in my mind that i rebuffed that very idealogy not because i was stubborn, but because when we allow emotions and other factors (despite we being right) to make that decision. it was hard, i would say, impregnable fotress in me? the next day, i was convicted not because i was right, but because god asked me to try to be gracious even all is lost. i guess it is easy to forgive when others are not so close but when it is within our boundaries, it gets harder and harder and what's more, when its someone you look up to and respect. fresh in my mind, after tat very conversation, i texted my confide saying, " sadly, im not *** but a ***, im not that gracious." and a reply," :) ".

like pastor spoke, so often, in today's web 2.0, people are trying so hard to change the world or their world behind a screen. i simply love it when pastor says," i change the world by holding someone's hands and looking to them in the eye." technology enhancements can cripple us if we're not cautious. i always remember telling my bestie that if i want to help you, i will not text or call you but i would want to meet you so i can see your body language and at the same time, you can see mine and know if im doing this in love or simply out of duty....

David Archuleta - To Be With You

2010-06-17T22:05:00.000+08:00

I've been alone so many nights now,
And I've been waitin' for the stars to fall.
I keep holdin' out for what I don't know
To be with you, just to be with you.

So here I am staring at the moon tonight,
Wondering how you look in this light.
Maybe you're somewhere thinkin' about me too.
To be with you, there's nothing I wouldn't do.

And I can't imagine two worlds spinnin' apart
Come together eventually..

And when we finally meet, I'll know it's right.
I'll be at the end of my restless road.
But this journey, it was worth the fight.
To be with you, just to be...

Holding you for the very first time, never letting go.
What I wouldn't give to feel that way...
Oh...

Oh, to be with you...

Oh, and I can't imagine two worlds spinnin' apart
Come together eventually.

And when you're standin' here in front of me,
That's when I know that God does exist.
'Cause He will have answered every single prayer.
To be with you, just to be with you, yeah.
You....

Heart vs Mind

2010-06-15T15:54:00.002+08:00

to follow your heart than your mind? which is the correct choice? sorry fellows, i have no answer for you if you asked....

so often we get into what i deem "chicken and egg" situation and get really lost, confused, frustrated, uptight and irritated. possibly with ourselves. i wonder what would it be for myself if i was to come to this standstill? truth foretold, im in this situation!!!! crap! lol~

i was jus sharing with my bestie that: 'it is so hard to do what's right even if you know its right.' its stinging and frustrating and it gets to one, devouring our energy and focus. most of the time, we struggle not in the black and white zone but in the grey zone; no doubts abt it, but we will be challenged time n time again of our character. knowing what's right and actually fulfilling/doing it, i would say, it can be 2 different stories. pressures pile and pile, all around you seem oblivious and it can get harsh.

the human is weak after all. coming to a point where one feels stagnant, confused, lost, disappointed, discouraged devours mercilessly and devoid of the right frame of mind all of a sudden. movement still in place but into delusion. seeking to avoid, to suppress and disconnect. and possibly ignorance will bring temporal comfort but day-in day-out, a state of oblivion and despair creeps. simply do not know how to react or what to do. the state of mind starts shattering.

its so hard, so hard... yet, grace abounds, mercies that flows because we're only weak than we can be made strong. making a decision to do what's right even with a feeble heart, it serves to strengthen and be encouraged. here is love, poured out so freely. yet the choice of freedom is still available for one to make the right decision. crumbling before pressures or pressures can crumble before us. leaders are constantly tested in keeping their cool under immense pressures and never getting their ego involved. this is because our feelings cannot touch god but our faith does...

the world may fall, but you never fail
i sought to run, but you sought for me
you waited in silence, with grace and mercy
even i turned my face, you kept waiting
in folly and unfaithfulness, you remained faithful
devoid of choices, you offered unrelentlessly
you never forget despite my ungratefulness
your love, has become my sweetest devotion
to let me find you once again...

when i don't know what to do... y did i disconnect and choose to crumble?

strangers

2010-06-09T11:20:00.001+08:00

humanity is about curiousity
either it kills or saves
choices made will determine
turning either left or right

as our paths crossed
i wonder was it fate
strangers we came from
strangers will we return?

thoughts that hinders
mirages that obscures
lost was the joy intensity
all quiescence bring unease

Asia Conference - Day 1 - Session 3

2010-06-06T21:13:00.002+08:00

Dr Kong - Culturally Savvy Christian

3 crippling mentalities:
a) Cocooning: Withdrawal, Isolation
we preach insulation but practice isolation
b) Combating: Fight, Resist, Oppose
we fight against everything of the world with our "righteousness"
c) Conforming: Compromise
"Gospel-lite"-compromise to the world.
*To be Gospel's Light, not 'Gospel-lite'"

Upward Mobility - we're called to be excellent, Daniel was ten times(Prov 22:9) better than everyone. (Dan 1:4) - King Nebuchadnezzer required all citizens of his kingdom to:
i. Learn the culture of Babylon
ii. Learn the culure of Babylon
iii. Learn the fashion of Babylon
iv. Change/Adapt Babylonia names
v. Take the jobs of Babylon
-Daniel did all the above but he did not compromise or give him his Consecration.
therefore its important that we be both Savvy in Culture and our Faith.
1) Counter Culture like aliens - don't be against it!
2) Communicate in Culture like ambassadors
3) Create Culture like Artists - be christianly-creative!
*keeping faith even its hard.

all said, today, with the cultural mandate released, sometimes we grow overly contemporary. culturally-savvy that we forget our roots. remember balance is the key although we all know it can be close to impossible to meet the equilibrium, yet to constantly move to the center-stage. Both Contemporary and Consecrated. whereby we build our lifes in spiritual disciplines.

Spiritual Disciplines (Bible-reading/meditation, Prayer, Fasting, Praise/Worship/Thanksgiving, Solitude w god, Confession/Repentence/Forgiveness, Faithfulness to the church) - these disciplines keep us consecrated, to influence and not be influenced. All successful ministries embraces consecration + Contemporary.

Consecration - Learn spiritual disciplines
Contemporary - Engaging the world.

our attitude determines our altitude. with status/promotion. what takes one to stay there is your character and therefore, those spiritual disciplines are the very cornerstones that we need to heart upon but so often neglected. We go up and without a strong character/foundation, we breakdown.

i was praying couple of days ago, i felt that an area in my life found lacking. i found myself uttering the words "god, i want more wisdom and that i would heart wisdom so that wisdom will heart me".

couple of weeks back, i was spending my time in solitude because i felt discouraged about certain things and in my despair, i felt stupid about myself. i decided to go into the book of wisdom - Proverbs. in the very beginning, king solomon wrote that we shoudl pursue wisdom for it is more precious than anything. these words kept revolving in my mind as i meditate on these words. with these words, i felt reminded about expectation management, being open and more flexible. the very next day, the preacher spoke a word that set my discouragement flying in all ways and this was the very 1st time in my life i had a light-speed revelation. and just as i was about to give up hope, i was strengthened again to have faith, be patient, trust and pray.

one of the beautiful things is that when we least expect it, good friends are just around the corner to give us a helping hand. choosing the right kinds of people to be with will really determine the type fo person you'll become. in crisis(s), our relationships are purged and the real ones stay by you. i was blessed to take the train with a nice lady today to school despite the heavy rain and although the conversation was not really in depth, once again, i was reminded of something beautiful last year Oct which made me felt so blessed that i wanted to bless those that were there last year. Good people come in all sorts of packages, shapes and sizes and it can in the walls and out of the walls of the church. love all just as the same and you'll find yourself moving into culturally-savviness.

Asia Conference Day 1 - Session 2

2010-06-06T20:36:00.003+08:00

Pst Phil - Pray

most christians miss out their walk with god due to a poor/weak prayer life. Prayer is like breathing. when one stops praying, he/she cuts off his/her life-supply or connection with god. pray is esteeming god more than anything and seeking Him. when we go through good times, bad times, pray. James 5:13 reminds us that," anyone that's suffering, let him pray..."

Dr yonggi cho reiterated again and again that his church is built on a life of prayer. a christian without prayer is a powerless christian. It is the key to revival, success, personal victory. it has gotta be as natural as breathing. Faith is the persistence crying unto god.

Therefore go into the presence of god, keep speaking, and speak the positives. Which is why, our words have the power of life and death. The first thing in the bible is not communication, but rather Creation - our words create our world. sometimes when we're in pain coz god wants us to turn our face to Him; in a face-to-face manner.

1 The LORD is my shepherd; I shall not want. He makes me to lie down in green pastures; He leads me beside the still waters. He restores my soul; He leads me in the paths of righteousness For His name’s sake. - Psa 23:1-3

those that have been my faithful followers on my blog and/or my good friends that know me well will know the power of pray. it works time and again. Have faith, pray, mix it with your works and overtime, you'll see results. so often, i get questions like "how do you do it? how do you be so focused? etc" my answer, trust and pray. our life's walk is filled with so much uncertainty and mysteries like the economic cycle, full of ups and downs. you know that today, the ups is not gonna last because soon, there'll be bound to be a time that you "free-fall". coping with both ends aren't easy because life's aren't all rosy. and yet, i know, keeping my life in check, helps me to find focus, and this translates to greater productivity, resulting in stability and thus security.

remember that you can either overcome or be overcome. all our lifes move in a pattern of the 4 seasonal change-Summer, Autumn, Winter, Spring. learn to ebb & flow. movement may not be progress, thats why we can be moving in circles. if today, you're in a bad situation (winter), learn to hibernate, move back to a place where its just you and god. Both of you form the majority. return to your first works, remember the time when you first met Him, the time you first experienced Him, the time He blessed you. If you're in a good good situation (any of the 3 seasons), always remember to be humble, don't allow yourself to the better of anything. shout His praises, be thankful, spread the joy, never be lax just because everything is going well-complacency goes before a downfall; remember to let Him lord/govern your life. this could be a time of preparation for an EBB-time. so that when you're ebbing, you are progressing and faster than any other time when you go through winter seasons.

lastly, i leave you to learn the power of expectation management. a perfectionist myself, this has proved invaluable time and time again even till this very moment. sometimes we put our faith and efforts into something and hopeful that something positive turns out. yet, we stumble and we put the blame on god, on others etc. yet we really needa know how to react when things don't turn out to be what we wanted it to be. of coz, we need to put in effort in everything we do but at the same time, results is not the end but it could be a time of seeding and not harvesting. be patient. Trust and pray.

Accountability & Submission

2010-06-04T09:34:00.003+08:00

had a fruitful bible-study couple of days back and visitation yesterday. this couple of weeks has been a time of rebuilding and edification as i was thinking about the cell past few weeks. coincidentally, i was sharing somethings about the above-titled matter and thus decided to talk about it since nothing in life is of coincidence...

What if one day, you come to a point whereby you and your leader is at loggerheads, in total disagreement, the relationship has soured and worst, there's enmity, the basis of respect and tolerance is no longer there? - make things easier, i offer you 4 options to choose from:
a) Leave the cell group, why
b) Change cell group, why
c) Backslide/Freelance, why
d) Any other options and why

from my little perspective, i assumed most will pick option 1/2 given that it would save each other any form of embarassments etc faced, additionally, it would be an easier choice to seek a way out then rather having to rub shoulders again. option 3 would be probably the last option unless a big issue comes along or one is totally disappointed and he/she paints the entire congregation in view of the single leader as prima facie.

moving forward, my response would be to pick option 4! what is my answer to this!? :p First and foremost; it is never easy and never was, to take a huge leap to if possible, to understand the other party. it takes one to remove your very pair of shoes, and put yourself in the reverse position. we may not fully understand his/her pov, but it definitely serve as a good "baby steps" out from your part.

Secondly, learn to press in to your leader. Ask, ask, ask! one thing that i learnt whilst working is, you either know or you don't know. there's no in betweens! likewise, if unsure, ask! there was once i felt so wronged about something, i was eager to get antagonized for sure, but someone once told me "it is because you never invest your time to build the friendship/relationship and thus there's already a breakdown in communication which is probably the cause of everything." immediately, it was like my mind had a paradigm shift and i realized how foolish i was to feel angry and bitter for nothing. the world doesn't revolve on a single person, yet it continues revolve regardless of our movements. our world is shaped by the relationships we forge.

lastly, the most important factor, anointing flows top-down. So often, we missed out on this important truth. if we're gonna get disconnected with our leader(s), the anointing, the blessings stops flowing, which it is liken to slitting your own wrist. the hard truth is, if you cant submit to one, what makes you think you can submit to another and ultimately to god? most argue against that they have no qualms submitting to god whatsoever but in reality, the life lived, tells of otherwise... especially those who have a desire to be leaders in the future, it shows your capacity.

Similar in the marketplace, managers are appointed over us as leaders. the very same concept is in play here. if one desires to be a manager, climb the corporate leader, the more you needa know the importance to submit even if you disagree. if today, you are a manager yourself, would you recommend someone to be promoted thats not in unison with you? yes, my productivity shows.. but even if there's no rapport between the manager and yourself, someone that's slightly below par compared but has a good relationship/rapport will get the promotion ahead of you. Even management theories show as one progresses the corporate leader, the time allocation moves more towards networking.

in conclusion, at the same time, as leaders, we need to consistently be reminded that the very reason we come of position is so that we can serve others better, more. never never forget the very humble beginnings that you came from. it is that we may decrease and He increase. to give than to receive. to love more because we know we can. we're not superior beings jus because we're promoted but because someone saw something in us that we can be an example. More is expected of us, with more given to us, more is expected. Leaders are examples, are role models, are look upon, are respected, the words spoken carries even greater weights; and so there's a standard we constantly need to adhere so that we don't become inflated or deluded. others start to pay attention to every little details, scrutinize them as one rises in stature. Dr Bernard:" if you don't think you can live up to a higher level of standard, don't be a leader and stumble others." With promotion comes greater responsibilities, greater maturity, greater consecration and greater humility & service. the type of leader, produces the same kind of fruits, comes BOTH the good and also the negative attributes.

Out of my hands...

2010-06-02T14:25:00.003+08:00

out of my hands, into my heart
you gave it all for me
love that is real, my emptiness filled
that's when i first believe

out of your hands, into my heart
you put your songs in me
rivers will flow, healing me whole
that's when my song will sing

my heart can never comprehend
love crucified the man
whose open hands were nailed for me
and now i live each moment serving only you
jesus my lord

out of my hand, back to your heart
i give my all to thee
words aren't enough, for me to start
to say what you mean to me

i surrender to your love...

-your love taught me to love, you first loved so i could love. you waited when i couldnt love, you gave me strength to start all over again, now i can love because you loved, and to learn to love all over again even when its difficult. it is because it was all out of that hands of yours...

Asia Conference Day 1-Session 1

2010-06-02T01:16:00.003+08:00

Dr Yonggi Cho - 4th Dimension

We are all living in this world on the 3rd Dimension (3D). it has been this way despite so called moving from 2D to 3D. Mankind has always believed in things they can see, touch and feel. And yet, without us realizing the next most powerful dimension, the 4th Dimension (4D).

its a place that we can actually create, recreate, discover and rediscover. Most people would call it the subconsciousness of a human, others call it the spiritual realm. in actual fact, it is a dimension that exists and its important to learn to tap into the 4D.

Reseachers, experts show that humans utilize a maximum of 3% of our brain to function in our entire lifetime and it is believe that if humans have the capability to utilize all, we will actually see buildings elevating. So often, when we see windfalls, good things happen, we say, we're just lucky etc but in actual fact, Nothing in life happens by chance-most people would kill to disagree this matter of fact.

Matter of Fact is; if one focus on creativity, productivity-the 4D, things will actually happen. Dr Cho emphasis this that if we can Control our Thoughts, we can control our life. if one of my earlier blogs, i've put emphasis that we cannot control our emotions (how we feel) but we can control what we're feeding our minds with. which in turn will affect our emotions. This quote of controlling your thought-life affirms my statement. The way we think is thus of extreme importance. If we feed our mind with rubbish, the rest is history.

So often, our world is governed by our curent world, circumstances-3D, it can cripple our very basis of belief and stand. we need to move into the 4D and in order for that to happen, it is critical that we have visions & dreams as it serves as a guidance for the 4D to work. so often, we get down due to discouragement, wet blankets when we share with people our dreams and visions. (learn to choose your friends wisely! you mix with turkeys, you don't expect to become an eagle). thus ut us important to understand that we're 4D-beings living in a 3D-things/bodies. Understand that god speaks to us through faith and not through feelings. moving in the 4D required faith. Don't live on your emotions/strengths/talents, live by faith. Have faith, confess it out. the power of confession-releases power over your life! Speaking in faith is moving in the 4th Dimension.

4 things you needa do to release the 4D over your life:

1) Have positive thinkings & words. remove all negativity!

2) Have a vision/dream. w/o one people perish! - Draw/proclaim/confess it out!

3) the power of speech-power of the tongue.

4) Pray. that the dream is ordained and given from Him!

be like abraham, whereby god told him to come out of his tent (Abraham's body-3D) and look into the skies (4D), and count the stars (when god promised him that he will be father of nations). Pray that miracles will come because life without miracles is no life at all to christians.

*the above is surmised by blogger. All rights reserved. Do not copy and replicate without consent. All information is for the edification at the believer(s)' discretion. Do not take word for word as from the actual author as it may differ. All similarities are purely coincidence. For accurate interpretation: pls refer to speaker's book:

HUSBANDS FOR SALE!

2010-05-25T17:01:00.003+08:00

Read this online and found it to be intriguing and funny!~

HUSBANDS FOR SALE!

A store that sells husbands has just opened in New York City , where a woman may go to choose a husband. Among the instructions at the entrance is a description of how the store operates.You may visit the store ONLY ONCE!
There are six floors and the attributes of the men increase as the shopper ascends the flights. There is, however, a catch ..... You may choose any man from a particular floor, or you may choose to go up a floor, but you cannot go back down except to exit the building!

So, a woman goes to the Husband Store to find a husband. On the first floor the sign on the door reads: Floor 1 - These men have jobs and love the Lord.The second floor sign reads:Floor 2 - These men have jobs, love the Lord, and love kids. The third floor sign reads:Floor 3 - These men have jobs, love the Lord, love kids and are extremely good looking. 'Wow,' she thinks, but feels compelled to keep going. She goes to the fourth floor and sign reads: Floor 4 - These men have jobs, love the Lord, love kids, are drop- dead good looking and help with the housework. 'Oh, mercy me!' she exclaims, 'I can hardly stand it!' Still, she goes to the fifth floor and sign reads: Floor 5 - These men have jobs, love the Lord, love kids, are drop- dead gorgeous, help with the housework, and have a strong romantic streak. She is so tempted to stay, but she goes to the sixth floor and the sign reads:

Floor 6 - You are visitor 4,363,012 to this floor. There are no men on this floor. This floor exists solely as proof that women are impossible to please. Thank you for shopping at the Husband Store. Watch your step as you exit the building, and have a nice day!

*quoted fr yyk*

loving it! :D
have a nice day!~

Manasseh

2010-05-17T11:42:00.004+08:00

Manasseh: (Hebrew: מְנַשֶּׁה, Modern Menashe Tiberian Mənaššé ; "who makes to forget")

Joseph, was the youngest son of Jacob/Israel, was looked down and bullied by his 12 other brothers. later he was sold to the land of egypt to be a slave. As you read on in the bible, you'll realize that he was maligned by the wife of his master who lusted after joseph and thrown into the jail whereby later he got the jail master saved and interpreted the dream of pharoah and later became the 2nd man of egypt.

he forgave his brothers for what they had done. he invited the entire family to the palace of egypt and feasted and acknowledged them back as a family with total disregard for all the hurts inflicted on him. he reverenced them as his brothers and did not held his head up high just because he was the prime minister of egypt. joseph later named his son, Manasseh which means "forgetful".

time and time again, unforgiveness is a vicious cycle that seeks to "kill" its holder. we get confused, frustrated, angry, heartbroken etc. firm to walk ourselves out yet to fall in slumbers again and seemingly unable to get out of the cages of bitterness and unforgiveness. Although most say that time will heal, no qualms about it but episodes and bouts of reminiscence and outbreaks get to us, thus causing us to sink further.

to forgive and forget, this 2 attitudes and actions come together. once again, it is believed that if mental patients can learn to forgive themselves and others, 75% of them can walk out totally healed. Chains of bitterness bind us up and we find ourselves unable to get out. make a stand and decision to forgive and FORGET. no doubt, it is the hardest part, which may seem impossible but it could be the way or key out.

Choose to let it go, and find your Manasseh. learn to take dominion, control of your thought-life. what you feed your mind with, it translates into emotions and ultimately, your actions. We cannot really control our emotions but yet, we can control our thoughts and what we feed our mind with. With positive thoughts, translates into positive emotions; vice versa. make a decision today to seek your Manasseh, learn to control your thought-life, free yourself from the chains of the past and look forward to a beautiful tomorrow.

2010-04-28T14:43:00.002+08:00

i was tasked to do a marriage anniversary well wishes for someone very nice! and its really my pleasure since i never knew that someone would really appreciate my lengthy, boring poems and well-wishes... but it was really nice to be able to given this opportunity to do so! :)
i made it into a 3-part series consisting of a poem/poerty, a quote and a verse to reinforce. Enjoy~

The path ahead is yet long
Where it seemed all lonely, scary
Where do I go from here
Everything looked so bleak

And there I saw you standing
Stretching your hand towards me
I was afraid to reach out
But something within yearns for it

Within your warm embrace
I found a shoulder to cry on
I found strength to carry on
I found the pen for our love story

A story foretold to last
Has neither a beginning nor an end
Our little steps on a road
Together with you through eternity.

Love, a mysterious little thing. A type of feeling that cant be explained. An out-flowing to give and not ask. An emotion that causes joy even when one is spaced. Something indescribable, something that’s shared, shown. Not loud, not demanding. Strange telepathy when no words are required. To understand is a virtue and grace is ever-flowing.

Wives, submit to your own husbands, as to the Lord… Husbands, love your wives, just as Christ also loved the church and gave Himself for her… So husbands ought to love their own wives as their own bodies; he who loves his wife loves himself
Ephesians 5:22,25,28

Forgiveness

2010-04-19T09:31:00.003+08:00

it never really occur to me that unforgiveness had such tremendous negative effects/impacts on an individual. no doubt, i knew the importance of forgiveness because only when i forgive, then i can be deemed worthy to be forgiven, but really never knew that it was bad to stay bitter and unforgiving.

first and foremost, pastor spoke of unforgiveness as wickedness. secondly, it provokes god's anger towards us. why? because, god's gracious to forgive all and by having unforgiveness, are we trying to insinuate that we are higher/more superior than Him because he can and we cant? and lastly, which i think it is so true, is that unforgiveness leads to torture. reason being, unforgiveness breeds and it grows at an exponential rate. worse still, it grows without we knowing and it creeps on you unexpectedly. and when it does, emotional, mental torture/torment, sleepless nights are just "minor" but more serious ones like fiery outbursts etc can prove deadly.

therefore, there're 5 ways that's progressive to disperse unforgiveness and to learn to forgive.
1. Don't curse it! - so often, we take matters into our own hands, getting angry and retaliating, becoming vengeful. the problem is that unforgiveness breeds. you may say," i'm not as bad.." but do you curse that person? do you get bitter and agitated even at the mention of the person? do you have evil thoughts and try to devise ways to get back at him/her? one powerful truth is that "Vengence is God's". if we fight for ourselves, god cant fight for you!

2. Don't rehearse it! - so common i would say! we gather in our groups of pity-parties or sympathy groups and sulk and talk and yak about it. it GETS to you! the more we talk about it, it WILL get the better of you coz it reminds you of the negative things and it will seriously get the better of you. don't keep saying and remind yourself about it! resentment is staying in the past, something real small becomes big and gets out of hand and you become paralyzed thus unable to move on. why? unforgiveness is addictive! like beer, smoking! we can be be addicted and the end result? we suffer, coz we get tormented by all these bad memories.

3. Don't nurse it! - don't keep feeding it as per stated earlier! anger is legit response but staying in it will allow torment/torture to enter us! if we don't know how to deal with it, literally, it gets blown out of proportion.

4. Disperse it! - maybe isit time for us to not hold on to someone else's bad deeds anymore? why allow his/her bad-doings become ours? no doubt we may question how does this occur, it becomes our problem when we don't deal with it and disperse the unforgiveness/anger properly.

5. Let nature takes it cause, allowing god to reverse it.
-earlier, we said," Vengence is god's". i believe that most of us, christians or non-christians alike, believe in the parable of sowing and reaping or "karma". For whatever a man sows, he will surely reap. allow "karma" to come at the right timing rather then taking matters into your own hands. don't make yourself more superior to god. be angry and don't let it get the better of you. Learn to properly disperse the anger, learn to let go, learn to forgive.

so often, it is really easier said than done right? yes it is! it definitely isn't easy to forgive especially when we see injustice done to us. and yet, at the end of the day, the ones that really suffer is, a hard truth, ourselves. we get sleepless nights, get emotionally distress, depressed, disappointed, angry and more angry, uncontrollable/imbalanced emotion reactions. All these will manifest outwardly and sooner or later, not just affect our own lifes but the people around us. experts have said that if mental patients know how to forgive others and forgive themselves, 75% of them could walk out of mental hospitals totally normal.

A very sad part is the ones that are most affected is really not ourselves, but our loved ones-family. when i went into the depths of my disappointment, i thought the world was going to end and i went into "zombie-mode". life was just day-in and day-out, work, eat, sleep. my work was affected badly, my life was like a zombie, nights were torture. Drinking was like my second name to be honest because there was where i was not alone. i wasn't shortsighted, i was blinded by unforgiveness, bitterness and resentment. worse, i got vengeful and wanted to get back. unknowingly, i made my mum very sad and worried. i could tell only when i spoke to her and there's where i knew i was unfilial to be of such an age and making her sad. there's where i truly realize that i wasn't hurting alone, i had allowed my unforgiveness to hurt someone close.

ultimately, we our ownselves gotta be the ones to make the decision to either hold on or let it go. im thankful i had supportive people rallying, guiding and helping me on the way. additionally, i had a powerful parakletos that showed me how to get out of my circumstance. one "sure-work" method i used was to pray and bless those whom i had unforgiveness against. there's probably the hardest but the best way. I'm thankful at the same time because i saw how friends of mine get stucked due to unforgiveness and never really able to get out of their slumber. it doesn't take courage and strength to forgive but it really takes everything you've got.

Every disappointment can be a new appointment. Every tombstone can be a new stepping stone.

Reality and Mammon

2010-04-07T15:09:00.006+08:00

With so much pressure from the society arising from money and status, I can't help but think "is money the means to an end" ?

After graduating, and coming to the work force, I do enjoy higher income. Pocket money vs the real income earned. Like many others, I climb the corporate ladder and slowly but surely, income grows. I am able to afford many things I could not when I was in school. Fashionable wear, lastest gadgets, fancy restaurants. Ideally, this should translate to greater happiness.

However, I find that the opposite is true. In fact, I find that my life during my JC and most of the schooling period the most happy. Those times I am broke, but money was nothing compared to skipping lectures for soccer, or checking out cute gals with buddies.

Now that I have more money, but at the same time, lifestyle is so much compromised. I see people talking whole day about money making, nasty and un cooperative colleagues, unethical business practices, backstabbers...etc...

I hardly can find someone in the office that sincerely chat about football, or travelling, or anything else for that matter. Everyone seems so preoocupied with jobs that they dun enjoy doing, just so that they either make a living, or obtain the experience so that they continue climbing the ladder.

My question is:"With all this pursuit, are we neglecting things that we really love, and like?"
quoted fr loveforgadgets

I was reading something on the forum that really intrigues me. the generic question to sum up the article is," will we find true love or true friendships?"

its interesting how we live in this world today especially where in reality, people say Money Talks. how true is this statement? Although it has never occurred to me, i seen so often that people talk about their friends, even themselves being dumped by their partners of years coz of finances, or even careers. you can easily find such stories on forums. has humanity degraded or what most say, we have EVOLVED? simple pleasures of life no longer seem so simple. basic needs such as food are no longer so basic yeah? and gifts are being scrutinized and people are so picky about what they want. everything is designer, luxury, "i want the best, i wan fine-dining" blah blah blah.

did it once occur to you that you actually dine at hawker centres, foodcourts, used that red-leaf pen, drank ocean mineral water before? the "elitism" has gotten so far imbued to our back of our heads and we stoop to a point of evolution that Money Talks. and we literally worship the very tool itself. it seemed so sad that people part coz of money, people pick friends/partners depending on his spending powess/wealth/status. we even resort to low-tactics to enhance and promote ourselves and yet, at the end of the day, is it really worth it? will these millions of dollars, make the inner-us prosper?

to surmise, i read this quote and i simply love it, no offense to anyone :)

“The women who take husbands not out of love but out of greed, to get their bills paid, to get a fine house and clothes and jewels; the women who marry to get out of a tiresome job, or to get away from disagreeable relatives, or to avoid being called an old maid -- these are whores in everything but name. The only difference between them and my girls is that my girls gave a man his money's worth.” - Polly Adler

Contentment

2010-03-15T17:03:00.001+08:00

Someone asked me,” Don’t you feel that as a Christian, you cant gamble, smoke, fool around, drink etc, life’s still so limited or boring?”

Although I had an answer in mind, this question set me thinking for a bit. Not because I doubted my faith or myself, neither but rather, an important word came into my mind the next day. And it was Contentment. What is Contentment?

Many define satisfaction, joy, happiness and success with having as much pleasures in life where possible and not forgetting accumulating wealth as one integral part of it. Truly, at the end of the day, will your heart, soul, mind have that joy you yearned for if all these are bestowed on your life? No doubt that, money is needed and having more is good but to my realization, having more only helps reduces a person’s number of worries. One of my revelations of Adam smith’s “Unlimited Wants vs. Scarce Resource” was the motivating reason behind this theory is human’s insatiable nature.

My answer to the question earlier is, even without all these things in my life, I can still have a happy and enjoyable life. The difference in whether one has to achieve the so called level of happiness is defined in his/her level of contentment he/she has set. Oh yes, it is always easy to rebuff this ideology that one has low level of or no goals/dreams/contentment because I have not much of what I want in life. How true is that? I’ve seen great men and women making big in life and you see them, you imagine, are these people what they seem to be? I admire Ms Elim Chew, founder of 77th street, a great philanthropist with a humble nature, so willing to help and give to the next generation. Most may think: ah she’s rich, she got it all, of course she can do whatever she want, so far and so forth but how many knows about her and her humble beginnings?

When the word Contentment fell into my head, I came to realize that I take much joy with what I have, what I do, where I am, what have went through. It is not because I have low expectations or nothing much to look forward in life but rather, how I know to count my blessings in my own life. I know that amidst my problems and imperfections, I learnt to champion my situations. People may never know what you and I have gone through but at the end of the day, I can be contented with what I have; simply because I appreciate what the world deems it “simple pleasures” of life.

“Success is, waking up and cannot wait to fly out of the door every morning. Success is, making people feel. Success is, working with the people you love and connecting with the world. And Success is finding a way to bind people with no connections with a dream. Success is, joy, freedom, friendship. Lastly, Success is really Love”- you can give without loving but you can never love without giving.

Beloved, I pray that you may prosper in all things and be in health, just as your soul prospers.
3 JOHN 2

Prosperity

2010-03-08T16:49:00.003+08:00

"Is the seed still in the barn? As yet the vine, the fig tree, the pomegranate, and the olive tree have not yielded fruit. But from this day I will bless you.’” - Haggai 2:19

finally, in the marketplace, for the marketplace, to penetrate the marketplace. Incredulously blown off was my mind. in split seconds, my vision became clear, my mind sober, extremely clear and when it all seem like a dream to many. applauses, tears of joy, whistles, exclamation was all let loose at expo hall 1 on 6th Mar'10. land found, building secured and in 12 months, Shouts of Joy and Celebration will come liken to the Year of Jubilee when the Israelites are being set free and every of their debts if owned are cancelled and a year where they celebrated; every 7 years whereby the number 7 signifies COMPLETE or PERFECT.

as we begin to arise and build, truly from this very day, god will bless and build our own houses. I yearn n desire the day when god come and ask me,"son ask, what shall I give to you?" (1kings 3:5)

so often we find outselves witholding and being self-centered, never able to discover the power effects of giving and thus shortchanging ourselves a huge milestone. and the power of giving brings out a generous spirit. Many people have huge amounts of wealth and savings because they believe the richer one becomes, the happier he/she will also become, unknowingly allowing themselves becoming slaves to mammon.

How wealthy a person is measured, truly (my 2cents) is how his/her prospers. We can gain the whole world but lose our soul. Coming to our end of our lifespan, will these accumulated riches/wealth/mammon, be carried into our "next life"? Give and it shall be given back, shaken together and running over. Allow our soul to prosper and we need to find our own ways to make it happen.

I await enthusiastically for 2011 because as i sow in tears, i shall surely reap in joy. 2011, i believe will be a year of building and consecration. i do not know what is going to happen but surely, from this very day, my path is surely clear. something in me awaits to explode and i await...

Inner spiritual Thirst and Hunger

2010-03-01T09:48:00.003+08:00

Wow! what a great message preached last sat! thank god i din missed it :p

so often when we "accustomized" ourselves to the things and rituals of god that we start to lose that very first love when we had our very first love. no doubt that we're still steadfast in our service to the church and the people, fervently in our works and has slowly, lost that very reason in our works. Jesus reminded the fervent Ephesus church in Revelation that they were a powerful church but yet, He had this against them, that they have left their first love. (Rev 2:1)

i think the first words that came into my mind was "complacency" and "religiousity". these characteristics creeps on us over periods of time and probably no one is spared of them. even myself, am guilty of committing them. we think that as long as we're serving, doing the works, faithfully attend cg and service or doing certain things that pleases god and our salvation is guaranteed. the question is," how sure is sure?"

when the message was preached forth, everything came into my reminiscence my very first time encounter with god. it was unforgettable and still so vivid today. When i was in my secondary four, in february, when 3 of my classmates invited me to church. i never really had a problem going to church since my relatives always invited me to church but i was only there to fool around and play with my cousins and friends. when it was worship, everyone lifted their hands, i felt totally out of place. @,@" so i decided to lift my hands in unison and close my eyes. the very moment i did that, tears began to well up in my eyes and trickle down my cheeks uncontrollably. i could not explain the phenomenon and worse still, no matter how hard i tried to hold back, more tears flowed... and the rest is history.

the most beautiful part was is that 11 years later, here i am, standing boldy proclaiming His goodness and mercy. It was because of what He done, here i am today. as i looked back, a deliquent, an outcast, someone that parents had lost hopes of their child making in life, simply hoping he wont embark on a wrong route of life; a wasted piece of clay when all hopes seemed lost, a dropout and a hopeless. Coming from the pits of helplessness and hopelessness to a life of joy, gratitude, goals and finally dreams. "For a man without a dream is a lifeless being." pressing on the higher calling says apostle paul.

as i look back, what i have is gratitude and True Joy. whereby a sensation deep down that cant be explained. what i can do and give is my life as a tool to be used for His kingdom sake. "for i was lost, and you found me. i was weak and you made me strong. i was poor and you made me rich; you stripped it all for my sake."

A New Beginning~

2010-02-22T10:00:00.004+08:00

Oops~ i just realized that i have not updated my blog for a good 2 months! talk about faithfulness... oops~ sorry... :x

WimpyKid wishes you all a Happy Lunar New Year and Romantic Valentine's Day! :) Have been very busy lately due to studies especially! was quite sad coz my exam fell on the 7th day of CNY! :( thats the problem when you study a overseas Uni whose holidays do not coincide locally. haiz~ nvm~ its over... feeling a lil' depressed coz although the paper wasnt difficult.. simply don't understand how the school wants students to write quantitatively when you give us a meagre 2hrs 25mins to pirouette on and answer 1 essay qns and 3 short qns... and sadly... i couldnt finish my paper... by the time im done w the essay qns.. i used a good 1.25hrs.. whatever!! >,<

anyway, time really flies... back to reality after a good CNY and all that mugging, i realize that i... would... be... COMPLETING MY STUDIES IN ANOTHER 5MONTHS TIME!~ wooohoooo~ :D

when you look back, you liken the period that it was all "yesterday" but come to think of it.. i have been through this Life-cycle of working and studying for a good 4yrs+ and 4.5yrs upon completion... of course i know by the time i finish, my emotions/feelings/thoughts/etc would be of another level but RIGHT NOW! i feel that it really looked like very long and also very short :x (contradictoRy~ but life's a contradiction sometimes.. :p)

i was talking to my mum few days back, then it really seemed like a long time when you review the process itself. but i have to say, all is very well worth it. although she said that if i stayed on working in my 1st job (aft my NS), i would have travelled to countless places and yet, i laughed in my heart coz she don't know how much im currently earning @,@" wahahaha~ so funny~ i laughed coz i never forget how i slogged and worked my lungs and hearts out to earn a sub-std salary. although it was proli the best years of my life (fun!) where i made worthy friends and mentors, i worked like a REAL vampire, going for literally no leaves for 3-4mths and my house was like a hotel. lol~ really really memorable. i really appreciate those friends and mentors even till today because they showed me strength, courage, support, help and opportunities.

truly, the beginning is not important but going through the process and pressing on to the prize at the end that really matters. have i not decide to pursue a longer route, i think i would not have gain much and acquire companions that have helped me sacrificially on the way. BUT! even after this Jul, it doesnt end but a new beginning, route, chapter unfolds!

New Year 2010

2010-01-05T22:42:00.004+08:00

its breathtaking to enter 2010 with a blink of the eye already... time passes us unexpectedly mercilessly indeed and age creeps on you without you knowing like coup de grace....?

i end 2009 with lots of emotions. memories and mixed feelings; at the same time, with innermost heartfelt intense gratitude. Before i get complained about being longwinded, to surmise 2009, it truly has been a rollercoaster ride; may i be humbled to use, how the world rided the economy? it comes to my memory as i write is, that the road that's straight is also narrow. from riding the "driver's seat" into the sky lines to dropping back to earth into the earth's core and back to reality again. my description: Intense, Exciting, Exasperating, Breathless, Touching, Joyous, Tearful, Heartbreaking, Heartwrenching, Nervebreaking, Angered, Confused, Ignorant, Oblivious, Challenged, Emotional, Mixed, Lost, Speechless, Found, Taught, Given, Reunited, Reconciled, Forgiven, Loved...

Positive Celebration and Praise becomes precious when you know you cant do them. Forgiveness and letting go becomes powerful when you know you cant do them.
Prayer and Surrender becomes a part of you when you know cant do them.
Love becomes you when you know you cant do them.

Lastly, there's many people that i want to thank for making a HUGE difference in my life and drawing beautiful strokes in my life painting. I cannot offer anything in return for your footprints but to say thank you and i love you all. you guys will surely receive a reward that is due to you because of what you guys did. As i was talking to my beloved manager today, it brings to my remembrance that "it is not how one starts the race, but how one ends the race." I want to remember if possible, all the beautiful carvings enacted into my memories, every little acts and gestures of kindness and love showered. To reminicse all of them and if possible return them with "compounded interest" to you all. The best has yet to come...

Together, lets live out our dreams with our borrowed lifes... i owe my life to every single one of you out there. Many Many Thanks... :)

starfield-unashamed

*a love that one cant explain....*

Post Exam Happiness!~

2009-12-14T15:50:00.003+08:00

Simply Bread's Cinnamon Bread

thanks to Tricia, i got a treat from her "admirer" :x lol~ :p my 1st try of Simply Bread (sorry, such a boring name tag)... its the cinnamon bread tricia was RAVINGGGG about!~ lol~ have to agree... its really nice BUT messy to eat unless you're home or somewhere not so crowded~ :x it really helps bring out the unglam side unless you're REALLY REALLY cautious~ thk god i din mess myself up but its really nice coz the cinnamon covering is generous! thumbs up again! ;)

Island Creamery!!!

we headed over to Serene Centre after exam and the boys and girls in class lovedddddd island creamery's ice cream (is it coz its the nearest of is it really that "gluey"?) yes~ they offer the not-so-common ice cream you cant find elsewhere like Pula Hitam, Tau Tarik etc~ yes, the unconventional offerings of ice cream which yes yes yes, agreed, nice~ tho i'm your usual dessert-guy BUT! :x the cakes is super sinful and nice~ not for the faint-hearted... :D

mayb im not a super-ice cream fan but yesssssssssssssssssss, thumbs up la ok? :x

Traditional desserts!?

2009-12-14T15:49:00.004+08:00

top left (clockwise): Barley Gingko beancurd soup, mango paste with soy beancurd, longan grass jelly, waterdrop eggwhite chestnut soup and almond paste!~ slurp~
it never, never bores me haf just yet another bowl of traditional chinese desserts~ yummy~ my bro, his gf and myself went to have desserts after a delicious dinner (pity i din phtot dinner) of Chicken Cutlet noodles at Hong Lim Food Center.

this is another outlet of Ji De Chi dessert house. i think it is proli new coz there's barely a soul in the store except for the staff. anyway, who cares, no crowd equals no wait! woot~ lol~ i want more and more desserts plsssss~ my beauty formulae~ :p

Azabu Soba choco ice cream with choco cream wrapped in crepe

2009-12-14T15:47:00.003+08:00

i had a craving for ice cream suddenly! oops!~ :x Azabu had a promo for i think its new product that they just launched(coz i never see b4)... its only $3!!!! lol~ of coz the ice cream portion is pretty small but eating the entire crepe will definite have an effect on your stomach! lol~

i think there were 4 types of different crepes to choose from and i slyly picked the chocolate one with a long name which i cant remember what it is! :p yes! lovely and thumbs up again for Azabu Soba! nice!~ had a simple dinner at the nearby foodcourt jus next to them! lol~ i was craving for more ice cream after having this! oops~ :x

Ichiban Boshi

2009-12-14T15:41:00.005+08:00

above* Half Curry chicken udon

*pork miso soup (ichiban prides themselves for their miso)

*curry chicken katsu with rice

*salmon bowl

unagi rice

we were here celebrating Zhenhui's bday and it was my 2nd visit here but 1st dining experience here. cut the story short... i was browsing through the menu and couldnt make up my mind on what to eat. i was feeling hungry and greedy! =x the menu looked appetizing but sadly, im not a sushi person coz i don'y like raw food... :( in the end i went for the curry udon + pork miso soup which was really worth it. Zhao's curry pork katsu looked really delicious and i was tempted to "steal" his food :p

the most worth was the salmon bowl + unagi bowl set. it comes with chawamushi, a bowl of miso and i think a plate of cut fruitsa all for think $18.99++. i think the menu is fairly-priced and the restaurant is well-placed with good ambience. a posh style of dining without having to feel a pinch on one's wallet. i highly recommend it to sushi lovers although i wont come back often given that i dont have a strong liking for raw and/or seafood. but highly recommended place. they're available also at Suntec City mall! :)

Yamazaki Bakery

2009-12-14T15:37:00.002+08:00

*was busy preparing for exam that was a lag between blogs. but everything is back to normal and i'll continue to bring blog entries faithfully every few days again! :) *

eclair basket
strawberry cream puff
i love creamy stuff although its ridiculously unhealthy and contains loads of unsaturated fat! but... who cares! why deprive of oneself of the simple pleasures of life?? :x i think many people disagrees, faithfully promoting healthy living/lifestyles whatever.... YES! whatever to you all out there! coz you're sure to miss out tons out there! :p

i love the strawberry cream puff! the amazing part is that, the cream contains some of the strawberry's love in 'em and it will make your day simply savouring them... i think Jap people emphasize alot on healthy living and thus, the cream comes in a "just-nice" portion and you wont feel sinful after having it! the chocolate eclair was just so-so but its very cheap coz it comes in a basket of 2 going for a mere $2? @,@ fantasticalicious!

pls get them because i think japanese pastries are considered top-tier quality... i would love to go to tokyo and sit inside their pastisseries and have a slice of love and people-watch.... wonderful... the thought of it brings me to a state of Nirvana~ :x Enjoy! i cant remember the price of the cream puff though but its <$2. Grab them! NOW! :x

Secret Recipe 3-in-1 edition

2009-11-26T16:18:00.002+08:00

white chocolate macademia

Mango delight
buttersotch pecan

"gluttony is a sin... god thy sinned... forgiveth thy once more"

how can one resist the temptations of early pleasures when the price is halved? i want to be forgiven please..... (the pics speak for itself already?)

these cakes are simply to be adored and savoured upon... i want MORE! this is considered my second attempt on Secret recipes and they wow you in another aspects in terms of texture and their sponge. Art, I would call their sponges because, sponges do make your tongue go boring if overdone. nuff said!

they're all nice except the Mango delight which i think its left too long... i din think twice ordering it despite it was the last piece on display since i din manage to eat it the prev time during its promotion and i should have known better :( nvm, there's always a next time to try a Fresh piece. the nicest of 'em all is white choc macademia! lovely~ :)

Genting-Mmm Yum Yum Bak Kut Teh

2009-11-26T16:16:00.003+08:00

was away in malaysia sometime ago during the wkends. it is nice to haf a short getaway anytime, away from all the hectic lifestyles and tight schedules. i love it when i can literally forget everything about work, studies and most importantly, forget who i really am. Taking a seat back from all that awaits you is simply breathtaking.

anyway, most importantly, i managed to try this expensive bak kut teh at genting. i had my doubts although i read about it coz it was a tourist location and things tend to be overpriced and poor in quality. regardless, during the wait for the bus down to KL, i decided to try it coz i know i will "regret" it later if i don't :p

yes, it is nice because although u see that the frivolous effort inside out the kitchen. and God! im paying for the goods & service taxes! yes... call me the typical cheapskate singaporean :x its very cold and thus the yummilicious-ness of it. overall, not bad will be a good rating and its still ridiculously overpriced though you've to accept it since its a tourist attraction. have to try traditional bak kut teh in JB which my friends raved about to conclude malaysia's effort :)

Oreo Cheesecake

2009-11-26T16:09:00.004+08:00

it was Shimin's bday and we celebrated it at Bark's Cafe... still a fine place to chill, talk and enjoy! i love it coz we had good food, good cakes and good compay! :) my 1st try with Oreo Cheese and bakerzin's was fantastic, rive would be equally good and indeed it takes great skill to cut a nice pcs of cheesecake! lol~ anyway, the cake's great and i think bday gal enjoyed herself coz it was not an easy year for her! fret not! the latter rain will always be more glorious den the former! huat ah~! :p

Abiding and Winning

2009-11-16T17:30:00.003+08:00

abstracted from: http://www.konghee.com/www/2009/08/abiding-in-gods-presence/

"God wants to protect you from all intentional and unintentional dangers. But the loving care and protection of the Lord are conditional upon three “becauses.”

Firstly, “because you have made the LORD, who is my refuge, even the Most High, your dwelling place” (91:9). You have to decide to draw near to God’s presence. When you choose to continuously dwell in the presence of God, you will continuously experience His protection over your life.

Secondly, “because he has set his love upon Me, therefore I will deliver him” (91:14). This conundrum can be clearly understood from the example of a family. Parents have disavowed their children because of their disobedience and lack of natural affection for them. It is the same with our heavenly Father. He wants His children to love Him, and if you do, you will be guaranteed of His protection.

Thirdly, “because he has known My name, I will set him on high” (91:14p). Obviously, this does not speak of knowing His name in an intellectual capacity, but experientially. And although God is known by many names, possibly the most important name is “the Father.” In one sense, “Father” is an all-encompassing name from which fl ows all the other qualities and names of God. The Father’s ears are always open to the cry of His obedient child: “He shall call upon Me, and I will answer him; I will be with him in trouble; I will deliver him and honor him” (91:15). More than that, you will inherit and experience the precious promises of the Father in heaven (91:16)."

i was pretty discouraged some time ago and was reading pastor's daily devotion. i think bad things happen to good people and sometimes we wonder where is god and why this and that. read this GODISNOWHERE. the first immediate reaction from most will be God is nowhere. but pastor made an important statement that we needa have a paradigm shift that the term is instead, God is Now here!

i'm glad that it my discouragement, i found my peace and strength. People no doubt will let us down and sadly, thats something i detested. At the same time, god purges our relationships to find the true friends that stick by you and i thank god i found them :) no doubt, it was saddening but yet, i was brought to another level once again and i know for sure, with god, my victories are guaranteed. i love it because, its either u be on god's side or be against him which i think its really a scary sight.

7 kinds of sufferings we all go through:
1) Storms of Life-the nature of life is stormy coz life's never a bed of roses
2) Chastening (dealings of god)-sonship and chastening goes together
3) Temptations-be tempted and do not sin
4) Spiritual warfare-mainly discouragement and condemnation ranked highest
5) Afflictions-physical sufferings and mental anguish
6) Persecution-attacked for doing the right things
7) Trials of Faith-a test of our capacity of obedience and endurance

the above taught me to be strong and follow the footsteps of Job. (Job 13:15-"though He slay me, I'll trust in Him."). I went into the book of Job during my very trying period of life this year and Job is an amazing man because he lost his entire family and wealth and yet, he didnt curse and take it out on god; even when his wife ask Job to curse god and die. lol~ to surmise, in the end, God restored to Job double of everything that he lost in the beginning. indeed if god, is for me, who can be against me. :)

Far East Plaza Chicken Rice

2009-11-16T17:04:00.002+08:00

I had a hard time take a pic of the chicken rice coz the table is shared amongst others and i gotta be subtle about it :x anyway, this is the famous chicken rice many people rave about that's situated at Far East Plaza.

i think the entire dining experience is nice and it gives off the typical crowded hawker centre feel although its air-conditioned. the food is very fresh and i have to say, the ginger sauce is fantastic. the chilli was nice but not wow coz i loved the ginger so much that i had 3 helpings :p i think my neighbours were like 0_o" lol~ i was abit shy but i could still see their looks discreetly~ wahaha~ the salted veg duck soup (咸菜鸭汤) was really amazing... it was raining for few days and soup does wonders to your body... and i really love having soups be it, lunch or dinner... I guess cantonese people loves soup :)

the bill worked out to be $8 i think. $5bucks went to the soup but well-worth every penny i paid and i finished the soup to the last bit, pity the salted veg they used was not so pretty and they din cut it nicely, i guess, most people just enjoy the soup rather than the ingredients. probably, they wanted the ingredients to make the soup more tasty and appetizing! i would love to come back here again! thumbs up!

Big O's Irish Bailey Cheesecake

2009-11-13T09:48:00.003+08:00

thks trisha once again for her highly recommendation of this amazing cheesecake. i've always boasted of Canele's and Bakerzin's Cheesecakes and its richness and YET! Big O's cheesecake is inexorably irresistable... *slurp... blogging on this is already making me salivating... :x

i also wanna kill Trisha coz she's been boasting about this cake to me and jus yakking away and away lor... dunno how to have some "initiative" lor.... :( and i jus couldnt resist all her yakkings and decided to drop by during my breaks when i was on duty at APEC. hefty pricetag BUT amazing texture, taste that really gives you the ohmmmm... i think i've been having too much of good cheesecakes/cakes that its been awhile since i almost reached nirvana and this have certainly booked a place on my favourite cakes/pastry list. HAHA~

exaggerating? try it. $8+ after the GST. well-worth every penny and the pricetag reminded me of 1 caramel's and this for sure, wins my vote :)

Bread Papa

2009-11-13T09:47:00.002+08:00

i have never tried bread papa before although i love cream puffs. i think its quite expensive and i've always settled for Prima Deli's sinful cream puffs since young when my mum would always buy 1 cream puff and 1 chocolate eclair for my brother who detests vanilla cream. anyway, everything will have its first! and it was a week for feasting during the intensive lectures when a few of us combine our goodies and take picture!! lol~

its nice and indeed it takes as sinful as Prima Deli's but its cream is different. its nice and would serve as a once in a while treat given its pricetag $2.50/pcs and buy 5 get 1 free (i think). anyway, i like some of what my good friends who have always been very encouraging; telling me to pamper oneself occasionally :)

i think its easier to give better gifts to others than ownself. but i believe this is probably the beauty of most of us. anyway, kudos to Bread Papa for its lovely creamy puffs, not for the "weak-hearted", simply love the oozing of the cream when you eat half of it. i'd love to try its ice-cream mua-ji soon ;p

我的美容秘诀

2009-11-13T09:44:00.004+08:00

from top left: honeydew sago w vanilla ice cream, yam sago w vanilla ice cream, chestnut sago, ginko nut w barley (clockwise)

desserts! i love desserts... i read this on Ladyironchef's blog that you know a man's a keeper when he loves desserts :x

anyway, i love to have traditional chinese desserts exceptionally and it has been my beauty therapy since young when my mum always bring my siblings and i to chinatown's 二姑糖水. i love the almond paste and occasionally fathom on the sesame paste. still the almond paste is my no.1 favourite till today-credits to mum for telling me that eating almond paste keeps my looks. yes, im a vain man :x

its a wonderful dessert session after some dim sum at my fav royal china @ raffles hotel. i think maybe its about time to engage Yanting @ st regis soon since its no.1 regardless of its hefty pricetag lol~ we shall see about it!~ Desserts and more desserts please!~ :)

Charcoal BBQ-return of Yakiniku

2009-11-04T09:24:00.004+08:00

i love Yakiniku, We love Yakiniku!~ yes! we all Do!! :p its lovely to come here and dine and eat and i simply love the ambience coz its not crowded (never?) and best of them all is that service is fast, prompt and excellent!~

some starters that i din see/try on the 1st occasion: COLD tofu, kimchi, octopus

ooolalala~ cook and eat, cook and eat! never stop, never give up!~ :p

it was once again, a fantastic experience eating, chatting and laughing our hearts out! din take much pic this time as we had cam-gal, trisha! :) thks and photos way on my facebook long time ago! almost grossed out when i unintentionally ate a pcs of cow-tongue... *puke~

this time the promotion was over BUT thank god coz stanchart has some discount think 15% off? i cant rem... the bill works out to est. $36/pax. good food + good company = happy outings! :) looking forward to the next outing alrdy! :)

Blueberry Cheesecake

2009-11-04T09:23:00.003+08:00

thks to xiuxiu and eugene in class during our intensive lectures, i got a nice slice of blueberry cheesecake from bakerzin's! :p i had my fair share during my birthday but i think the cake-cutter was "poorly-skilled" that he/she kinda "squashed" some of the cake... @,@ i think it takes skill and lots of details plus patience to cut a beautiful slice! ;)

as usual, bakerzin's never fail to impress my taste buds and the goodness of the cheese makes you go ooolala~ :x plus with the blueberry covering on top, nice~! blueberries are alzheimer fighters! so, DIG IN w/o filling guilty! lol~ yum yum!~ thks xiuxiu n eugene!~

Chocolate Indulgence by Secret Recipe

2009-11-04T09:21:00.004+08:00

typical "kiasu-ism" =X
a slice of happiness~

I saw the ad somewhere! i cant rem where tho but! who careS~ :D lol~ this is gonna be a little controversial FOR some people but it doesnt really matter to those who knoe nuts!~ :p my 2nd tryst with secret recipe...

the cake is really huge and i think even if its the original pricetag, its really well-worth it. when i say huge, its really huge, fit for a king!! roar~ i couldnt resist the temptation and cut a slice that day in the office and one for my brother... hehe~ i think you have to love cream to love this cake coz its rather gelare and i think 1 slice will cause the law of diminishing returns to kick in... =x

tasting-wise, its still good but, my opinion is that, its very very filling and when i had 3/4 of the cake, i felt full given the fact i skipped lunch... i feel the sponge is a little too much so i guess that what makes it very filling... i guess the girls will proli stop at half. best to share 1 slice. moreover i was very stingy when i cut the 1st slice. hmmm~ken told me that, Chocolate Induglence, the original, does not contain too much sponge. it is due to promotional season that they made it this way, i guess i will have to try it again! :)

overall, its a nice piece of art here and i'm a cream-lover thus the preference for it. i think i proli needa visit canele soon for valrhona detox ;p ;or some bailey's irish cheesecake-this is thks to tricia... :(

Boo Boo Cake~

2009-11-04T09:20:00.002+08:00

this piece of cake is heavenly!~ even the whipped cream taste awesome!~ =X

i was out to have pig organ's soup at lavender. i shall post this GREAT pig organ's soup soon man!~ don't have the pics now tho... :x i tot my friend was playing with me when she was describing about Boo Boo cake... i tot was some sort of emo codes?morse codes? or whatever and guess what! i was in bewilderment when i saw it with my very own eyes!~ lol~ think when u mix around too much with crappy people, your brain begins malfunctioning and becomes equally crappy or..... >.< oops!~

anyway, this cake is quite rich and i love rich chocolate cakes especially Canele's. its been awhile, Ms canele, i shall visit u soon.... lol~ and NYDC has really created something i would give a thumbs up and a "out of this world" rating! :) Boo Boo cake it is! one that wont make you go boo hoo!~ :)

shd i get a digital camera? hmmm....... i wonder......... :x

kettle chips

2009-10-27T11:01:00.001+08:00

Thanks Clara for giving me this packet of chips so long long long time ago... it was a kind and much appreciated gesture from her... i will never forget it thats for sure coz i was sharing about my sad stories and i think she and my bro could feel for me... yet i guess they din know how what to say to make me feel better :)

its the "atas" chips you'll find it at major good supermarkets. i think i always go for homebrand chips and once in a while pamper myself with either Lay's or Ruffles!~ anyway, i always keep things people give me even food for an eon period =x lol~ anyway, this habit of mine has yet to change coz seeing the item there makes me feel blessed and appreciative to these givers!! ;)

that aside, the taste of it really makes it feel expensive and high crass (purposely spelt this way). haha~ thks bro n clara! grateful!~ :)

Fullerton Hotel DimSum buffet

2009-10-27T10:57:00.005+08:00

I'm really very blessed to be able to attend this dimsum session with the forum! lol~ it feels really nostalgic and a atmosphere of suspense and awkardness when i thought about it way back and even during the meetup!! lol~ but yet, the temptation of having dimsum is not diverting me away anyhow!! also, one of my foodie classmate, shirley told me that you gotta make reservations a good 3 mths ahead of time! so i was pretty hyped up when it was an open invitation made and best of all, it was an invaluable experience to be acquainted with new faces of different walks of life!~ :) also, the invitation was made only to the 1st 20 respondees in the forum... keke~ i'm in the guest list as mystery chio bu!

big big table w pu-er tea

assorted

Abalone Siew Mai

shark fins har gau

century egg & pork congee

guo tie~

ok, tasting:
probably it was just me i guess... the food was pretty decent and i think most of the people on the table were raving about the food! haha~ i held back alot on my photo taking coz many others were taking and i wasnt familiar with them and i wouldnt want to look like a cam-whore... :D thus my humble collections were limited and the pictures are a lil' diff from how i normally would make it seem more yummilicious :x haha~

tat aside... i think the dimsum here is more of a seafood/prawn haven.. they had many stuff that was prawn in nature... and i have say this, is that, the quality is good and well-worth your penny given the quality it boasted... really, i mean shark fin's hau gau? abalone siew mai? lol~ impressive huh? i couldnt agree more... of coz, Fullerton pales much in terms of taste which i would expect it to fulfill this area of my needs (Disclaimer: individual pref). overall, i enjoyed myself much! :)

Therefore, enjoy or satisfy your dimsum cravings without feeling the pinch on your wallet given its quality ingredients, priced at $28++ but be ready to endure the wait! lol~

The Dim Sum Buffet at Jade is available on Saturdays, Sundays and Public Holidays for two seatings, from 11.30am to 1.15pm and from 1.45pm to 3.30pm at $28 per person.
For reservations, please call Jade at (65) 6877 8188 or email jade@fullertonhotel.com

http://www.fullertonhotel.com/swf/promotions/delightful_dim_sum_weekends.html

oh! another important thing, i have to applaud the service standards. the service is fantastic and i think our unreasonable demands din blow the staff away, instead, WOAH! the captain blew us away with his professionalism, patience and helpfulness amidst the full crowd in the restaurant. i really salute him for his patience! ;)

Jln Kayu Roti Prata

2009-10-27T10:52:00.003+08:00

its been awhile since i went to Jln Kayu for prata already... as usual, this is one of Singapore's fav hangout place for people wanting a dose of prata and some malay food. think its still nice and very very crowded... the parking here is ridiculous as always... anyway, i think its simply an overhype but anyway, who cares? lets jus dig in!!

think the prices has rocketed quite abit since its really been awhile since i had prate and indian food. the ko-song prata cost 90cents, egg cost 1.50 and i wanted the egg-mushroom but it was priced at $3 or $3.50 i think i decided to not give in to my cravings... a piece of dough doesnt really justify for me to dig into my wallet =X anyway, we also ordered some satay and i think its quite nice but the sauce was a lil' too peanut-y for my likings but anyway, we couldnt finish the food coz it proved to be too filling... lol~ thk god i ordered 2 ko-songs only muhaha~

Fish Spa

2009-10-21T17:12:00.004+08:00

ho ho ho~ i decided to dare myself to take the fish spa challenge afterall!! lol~ its really funny coz i'm always put off by the thought of it just puts of off... maybe its a lil' disgusting but one of my buddy just went for it so i decided to try since its pretty 'cheap' and we were nearby... :D

i think its $10 (excl gst) for 10mins. i really thank god that it was only a mere 10mins. lol~ the feeling is really ermmm.... i cant explain it but ticklish and ermm.... gross? =X

anyway, its an interesting experience and funny would be a more appropriate word to use i guess. the fishes nimbling on ur feet and calfs... ooooo @.@

Botak Jones

2009-10-21T17:10:00.001+08:00

my virgin experience at Botak Jones given the amount of hype i've been hearing about it for a long time. i think i just came out whichever caves i've been living in... (maybe is the Batu caves?) lol~ anyway, it was a dinner cum supper coz din have dinner but felt like trying it since i was shopping with friends there. :)

black pepper chicken breast with fries and cheese potato
fish and chips with cheese potato and coleslaw
I think the food is pretty decent and the variety can be considered aplenty. the cheese potato is NICE~ maybe coz i'm a cheesy person =x the coleslaw was a lil' too sour for my liking but nonetheless, i savoured it to the last bit. i love the black pepper chicken than the fish and chips... i think fried stuff tend to taste decent no matter how lousy the person cooking is. lol~ i guess the grilling and cooking part is where a chef's skill is being tested but yeah, its well-worth my penny since the food was of abundance~ couldnt finish the food and my friend and i "resorted" to 5-10 to finish most of the food! :P

its nice and its right next to *SCAPE or youth park. Botak Jones has outlets islandwide and its inexpensive. i forgot the price already.

*after much persuasions and encouragement, i may make plans to migrate my foodie trysts to a dedicated food blog. i think its gonna take more dedication and commitment. i will rethink about this proposal!~ lol~

Birthday Bash Part 3-11/10

2009-10-12T09:34:00.004+08:00

NYDC Chocolate Cheesecake~~
Lao Beijing

WOW~~~ i'm loving it~

An Big Big Thank you to all you guys!~ you all really blew me away, take my breath away.... i'm left speechless for real... haiz~ i'm overwhelmed with emotions this time yet its emotions of joy and love. i'm so moved that i think i really had to restrain myself... love you guys a whole lot....

it was a post celebration with my beloved classmates because i couldnt attend class on thurs due to preparation work to be done. yet indeed, god saves the best always for the last yeah! :) we met up at Dhoby Ghaut since i think its time to give Lao Beijing a try for its High Tea Dimsum buffet. i think all of us enjoyed and i was so full that i didnt want have the cake... the free-flow of xiao long Baos.... oh my oh my~ *slurp~ soup was pretty good although i had better elsewhere but for its pricetag it is worth everything. if only they have this buffet for lunch instead of high tea... den it would be soooooooooo convenient!~ lol~

once again, i'm totally blown away with the present you guys gotten me and i really feel indebted and unworthy of such a big present. really really touched and thanks for the preparation from the start till the end although David gave away alot of hints here and there. But for sure, the present is really really something that i didnt expect and i really really love it soo soo much~ *when i tot the bigger the gift, the ermmm.....~* haha~ thks guys and girls! lets keep relationships alive for a long long time like Ashley and Shirley said. i love you all with so much gratitude and heartfelt emotions towards you all. you all are sure people i wanna hold dear to my heart.

This year its been a rollercoaster ride for many of us i believe and myself and yet i'm slowly moving towards to place of no-looking back because the latter rain has manifested itself that it is more glorious than the former. as we approach the final 2mths+of 2009, i begin seeing more challenges and more fruits of labour and beautiful things coming to my life and coming to pass. This year i receive the most number of gifts and celebrations and wishes. I saw major changes in my life in a shortest span of time. I see more beautiful people and gems shining. I see young and exciting people. I see the highest of highs and the lowest of lows. I see the good, the bad, the ugly. and lastly, I saw love.

i wish only for my love to permeate wherever i go despite my imperfections.

Mother Teresa:" I belong to no one, I belong to the World."

Birthday Bash Part 2-10/10

2009-10-12T09:33:00.006+08:00

ho ho ho~ Blackforest ice cream cake from Swensen's!! lovely baby~ my colleagues celebrated 4 of our birhtdays, namely Ian, Ivy, my bro and myself at Sukiya at Marina Square for Shabu Shabu buffet (again...). I really dunno where they hid the cake and it was funny this year coz i had to write my own brother's bday card! lol~

it was nice of them to all appear especially a VIP appearance by Lilian. lol~ it was fun eating and talking rubbish... i was touched coz one of my friends call me from overseas to wish me happy birthday and we chatted for think 15-20mins on international!! @_@ but it was nice catching up and reminicsing the past and stuff. One of my friend sms me from HKG, which was really nice of him. this year i managed to excuse myself from drinking and i think some of my friends were pissed~ oops!~

really much much thks to all my colleagues coz i think they 大出血 coz it was 4 persons' bday concurrently held. applaud u all man~ time to go shopping~ keke~

*more pics on my facebook.

Birthday Bash Part 1-9/10

2009-10-12T09:31:00.002+08:00

erm... no pics paiseh~! :p

celebrated my birthday with my cell group people who prepared a pleasant surprise! it was a Jazz Night party where i had spent 2wks plus to practise for it. The actual day was worse! i felt more nervous and i think i couldnt hide my nervousness well although my friends thought i was not bad lol~ it was nice to once in a while have a nice fellowship meeting and relax but sadly, i'm not the one relaxing. anyway i'm more worried about my assignment.

it was nice that i got the Bakerzin's Blueberry Cheesecake. love cheese, love blueberries! wooohoo~ and they got me some apparels and a nice rugged belt from Levis Signature. my 1st Levis actually. lol~ *from the countryside.... anyway thks for the gifts and the lovely cake. need a rest man~ tired~~

Si Chuan Dou Hua

2009-10-06T10:00:00.006+08:00

it was an early celebration with some close friends for my birthday. i was yearning to come here for sooooooo long alrdy.... FINALLY!~ anyway, it was not the actual thing i wanna try since what i wanted to have was the wkend dim sum brunch that had 100 dishes but this was not bad with abt 60+ dishes. in the end we only managed to try 10++ odd dishes but it was still good!

the dinner buffet menu
kungfu tea

some starters: spicy cold beef, spiced meat

starters: salad prawn

Shark fins soup-real fins

stir-fried ginger onion beef

soon hock fried fish

think is prawn paste chicken? cant remember but very nice~

braised sea bass

yang chow fried rice

soft shell crab
Overall, the food is very good, i give it a thumbs up coz it deserves for one to return but the service is ridiculous and exceptionally poor. i find it hard to stomach in my standings and is very disappointed given the hype and classy-ness of the place. the good food served as a complementary till we were engaged in our own world talking and eating. lol~ its $35.80++ per pax but UOB cardmembers enjoy 3+1 dining. looking forward to my next time here only for the wkend brunch or Wanhao at Mariott's!~ oo lala~

Million-dollar view :)

F1 fever!

2009-09-29T10:04:00.007+08:00

feel very very blessed indeed coz i got FREE passes to attend this year's Formula 1. i was pretty excited about it. just thinking in my head, it would be really cool if i can go and BAM! thk god for all this blessings. :)

I was really getting pumped and hyped up to go watch F1 and seriously, i didnt expect it to be so fun! lol~ everyone there was so excited and it really got me going! lol~ i rushed off after service and i tot the race ended when we reached but good thing it was the practice session that just ended. headed over the Timbre Arts House for a good pizza some drinks before heading back.

i think good things should come in pairs :p anyway, thks to ivy, we managed to go to one of my coverted places in singapore, One Marina Boulevard. it was like a function room that only the staff reserved. it was really cool and the view is simply exasperating and awesome! breathtaking indeed. here we were in the relaxing mode with aircon, different from the qualifying race the day before where you gotta brave the humility although the atmosphere is really different!! lol~

anyway, really thankful to Jack and Ivy for making all this possible. a fun-filled weekend for myself and thk god for all this! :) next year mayb its time for the Pit stop location? =X

Sukiya Shabu Shabu-Part 2

2009-09-23T09:56:00.005+08:00

*azabu sabo
Ti-rah-misu

*fruit tart

after our shabu shabu fiesta, a few of us decided to further our activities on this lazy monday (thk god for public holidays falling mondays!). we caught a movie at The Cathay titled "Whiteout". pretty decent show filled with good suspense and stuff. before we headed over for movie, xiuxiu had a craving for Azabu Soba ice cream even after a heavy buffet. lol~ *salute~ jack, keegan couldnt resist the temptation and gave in lol~

after the show, we headed to Dhoby Exchange arcade. lol~ its really weird for us to go to the arcade to play games but i had to pull them there to play the Daytona that had 6 driving machines. it was a fun-filled and extremely hilarious coz xiuxiu became our "Super catwoman". i shall not elaborate on the details but its an epic afterall and i think its gonna be deep in our head for a long long time!~ all of us commented that we shall do this again. lol~

once again, after a breathtaking arcade session, we headed to TCC to chill and have some coffee since jack was feeling tired coz he was working 24hrs the night before. we shared 2 cakes/pastries which are always on my radar. i really love this time spent coz it was really a day where i let down myself and simply go along with the motions of everything. how i desire such times where i neednt think about anything at all but moving on a free gear. best of them all is you have wonderful people surrounding you and moving in the same speed and mode as you and you know they arent gonna leave u behind. thats what i call comrades and no longer friends.

Sukiya Shabu Shabu-Part 1

2009-09-23T09:53:00.005+08:00

it was yet another shabu shabu outing for 8 of us on the day right Hari Raya. i was quite excited about it coz on my last Shabu outing at illuma, it was a wonderful time complete with wonderful companions! :) this was a recommendation from Tricia. thanks for this wonderful recommendation and the guys/gals simply love it. the soup is nice, ambience is wonderful (coz we managed to squeeze all together in 1 sitting), best of them all is the price! lol~ $15.90+ for lunch and $19.90+ for dinner!

anyway, it was indeed yet another exhilarating experience for me especially when comes to food! our new addition, Shirley came along and I think she also had much fun crapping, eating, joking and chatting with us. it was really a fun-filled dining session that makes me wonder why the heck i'm be studying when i SHOULD be enjoying life!? anyway, without my studies, i wont be where i am today and the friendships i've forged wont be around! lol~

the food was really good. the beef, chicken, pork is free flow! yippy!~ 3 kinds of soup base to choose from where you select 2: Sukiyaki, Shabu-Shabu and KimChi. We picked the sukiyaki and kimchi based which was a winning strategy for all of us! add $1 more for free flow of jap occha! simply enjoyed myself with superb friends!

after which we went to pig out and walkabout..... :D

Happy Birthday Bel!

2009-09-14T10:31:00.006+08:00

it was a joyous time as always to celebrate birthdays and what's more when you celebrate a "celebrity's" birthday! :p it was a rush-rush (not hush-hush) affair and was thankful that we all managed to make it a successful occasion for our beloved bel! :)

*Canele's Jupiter

*food for everyone! :) Pizza and KFC!

(this 2 pics are taken using omnia vs the 1st pic above using iphone-huge contrasting differences)

it was fun taking pictures of the elegant cake. i think bel had fun herself although it was in office. lol~

Happy Birthday Bel, hope you'll have a blessed 09/10. greater things yet to be seen and indeed the coming days will be more glorious than the former. like you wished, hope the team will continue striving cohesively under your leadership and together soar to greater heights. may your personal dreams and endeavours come to pass! be blessed! :)

*OH! and happy shopping! lol~ =X

Royal China Dim Sum-Part 2

2009-09-14T10:27:00.004+08:00

har gao
custard layered cake

was craving for some dim sum the other day during the 2nd day of Comex. so i decided to arrange a dimsum session with my good friend. lol~ i would love to always go back to Royal China anytime when my dimsum given its excellent quality and service.

this time, the only sadness i experienced was they no longer serve the appetiser tofu... :( thats one tofu that will definitely make one drool over it. whats more when i'm a hardcore tofu-lover...

that aside, this time there's only 2 pics coz the rest i have taken before like the siew mah, lo mai gai, char siew bao and cheong fun etc. not forgetting all dim sum lovers' favourite-har gao! lol~

the 2nd dish was a dish recommended by the staff. i was craving for some custard buns and they didnt have it!!! @_@ instead, they had this new creation, custard layered cake. i was a little sceptical but who cares of cynism or whatever when you're at one of the best dim sum restaurants in town! lol~ the custard layered cake impressed my friend and myself too! a pity we had it last. i think the cake will taste awesome if we had it after sooner after its being served. its a new fusion from the normal custard stuff one usually had. nice~!

Charcoal BBQ

2009-09-14T10:19:00.006+08:00

i was looking forward to having yet another buffet only after having shabu shabu just 3 days back! lol~ feeling greedy yet hungry! it seems all the food i have cannot satiate my endless appetites lol~

this place was recommended (strongly) by Eric and Philia. i have to say, i really had my doubts since it was jus at St James Power Station. i've passed by here on several occasions and yet, i've never really taken notice of it, worse, there's really no one here!! @_@
*tenderloins

*beef cubes

SALMONS, scallops & assorted :p

TO my 3 other friends and my surprise, the food is lovely!~ *slurp~ all of the food we ordered are so fresh!! and i couldnt stop eating and cooking and eating and cooking... lol~ there're 4 types of beef here and we had them all, the salmon is so nice and apparently i had to boast to my friends who had the buffet last week coz the restaurant didnt have the salmon haha~

my friends were already salivating when the scallops came... it was a pretty sight coz it was still fresh from on its shells. i had 1 and i disliked it coz it was so fresh that it tasted so raw to me... one of my friends couldnt help by keep cooking and swallowing it down her throat! lol~ it felt like she was eating oysters!! haha~

i simply love this place and i think it may not appeal to girls in general who are particular abt their food coz its more heavy as in, more meaty in many sense. they do have greens although i didnt pay much attention to them expect for its shitake mushrooms which are really soft and tender... we also had vernison (gosh, so nice!~~), chicken, pork loins, cheese sausages and many more. one may think the menu offers a limited variety of food but its so wrong coz i enjoyed myself so much and i didnt even managed to try all of the menu!! :)

The cost worked out to be approx $35/pax after factoring the GSTs and Service Charge. The price is a promotional price for a limited time only. hehehe~ so blessed!~

kudos to good food!~ =X

Azabu Sabo

2009-09-10T10:06:00.004+08:00

*occha (green tea)
*pork katsu don

*complimentaries

*Milk chocolate with ice cream

*Soda with ice cream

after trying so much of their lovely ice-creams, i think its time to try its main dishes. i wanted to go to Central to try out Gobi cakes but sadly, it was closed :(

so walked around at Central to see if there's anything to eat since my friend and i didnt have dinner but ice cream at one good ice cream store near siglap (which i cant rem the name oops~) anyway, that aside, i think the Azabu dining outlet was surprisingly rather packed at a late hour at abt 945pm. i think the waiters and waitresses were huffing and puffing away, trying to meet all customers' needs. another contributing reason that i went ahead with eating here is due to a discount partnership with StanChart.

my friend and i shared a Pork Katsu Don since i wasn't really hungry. the ice cream drinks was refreshing and nice! mine's the one with the cherry-Ice Cream With Soda, while my friend went ahead with a safe option of Ice Cream with Milk Chocolate. it was nice and its definitely a nice place to chat and relax especially if you're out a whole day looking for a nice place to chill and stuff. highly recommended, pricetag is really affordable! :)

Shabu Shabu~

2009-09-10T10:03:00.009+08:00

arranged a mini class outing with a few of them before sch reopened the following wk. it was a much anticipated foodie outing especially for ME!! :p it is really cheap (in my opinion) since we were paying "student price" which was $15.99++. it was a fun experience with good food. the food was pretty fresh but the shortfall is that each person is only entitled to one box of beef (as shown above) :( i would love to have more beef although the other food was pretty decent and appetitizing especially their sausages, soba, vercemilli, pork loins etc. soup base chosen was spicy and miso. the spicy soup is amazing and it simply works wonders for me and most of them. i enjoyed my meal with soba and spicy soup plus the enoki and seaweeds. NICE~

i think the most important part in complementing good food is GOOD COMPANY!! yesh~ i'm starting to reap the benefits and understand the importance of forging strong bonds with various types of people and friends. it takes 2 to clap and sometimes we all get so coped up with our agendas that we neglect this area.

i was in the car with a good friend and we were talking about careers, friends and life after we all graduate in a yr's time. i love the way he says that lets continue to go out and meet up all that after that. this guy is one friend i will want to continue to be friends, if possible for a long long time. he really doesn't know the word "boundaries". i know for only a couple of times, he has introduced me to his own circle of influence and i'm simply appalled and touched by his actions. really, takes my breath away.

i've seen so much in my life, how were they good friends for a good period of time, shared the same interests, having the same preferences, shopping habits etc and all of the sudden, simply not being able to accept one's opinions and truths and begins to sow contempt. this past months, through my life, i've learnt the importance of holding my peace which has slowly become an attribute for my life. an outspoken person i am and yet this little thing of holding an individual's peace is so often being neglected.

anyway, cut u guys some slack :p lets go eat soon... which will be this coming 21st! =X

Erdinger hoot

2009-09-10T09:50:00.002+08:00

I saw this at carrefour the other day and i was tempted to buy but since i couldnt find the price tag, i jus gave it up. i like the whole package which esp the 2 beer mugs in this item. anyway, erdinger beer is really nice since its wheat beer. its smooth on ur throw and best of all, its sweet! i miss my konigg weissner..... :( nvm, i've yet to open it lol~

there's actually lots of surprises you can find at carrefour, i'm beginning to love them over our homebrand, NTUC(s). of course, they can't beat the price tags offered by homebrands but they offer a huge and i mean HUGE variety of products and stuff. i would go there and get my ready-made chicken chop, fish fillets or even sushi for a good $3++ and enjoy it. they also offer wide range of foreign products which you cant find in most supermarkets except for Marketplace(my guess).

Farewell Philia...

2009-09-07T15:44:00.002+08:00

*sob sob*
*sob sob*

*sob sob*

farewell... my 1st cake baked to me.... so touched~ anyway, farewell my poisonous friend. lets go makan soon after lilian comes back fr states... si chuan dou hua..... :(

*sob sob*

Canele-falling in love

2009-09-07T15:37:00.006+08:00

simply couldnt resist the temptations of having a nice slice of canele's cakes brought me back to square one. how i so desire after thee~ a combination of sweetness and satisfaction revolves in eons and it seems time has come to a standstill as time segues away. oh my~

i had to have them again... i will be trying Gobi cakes at Central Mall this sat. a strong recommendation by a good food buddy (vis-a-vis poison buddy-its a vicious cycle~) and from the looks of it, it seems so pretty, the cakes! canele's great and i neednt elaborate further after my 1st visit there in my prev post. love them~ :*

SIM call casting project

2009-09-04T10:59:00.004+08:00

i was invited to go to the school to roam around and to promote the event to SIM's next potential candidates to be the school's ambassadors. its been fun and to speak to classes about how it is to be an ambassador and stuff. i think the response was alright and to go from lecture theatres to theatres are interesting. my partner was a manly looking Korean gentlemen who just graduated from the UOL program and the best part is, he speaks good mandarin. Makes me wonder what the heck i'm doing with my mother tongue, argh, heck it~

i think it was an awkward and silly that i met someone whom i really least expect it, Ms Ophelia... 2nd time, or mayb i'm hexed or what... her boyfriend and her saw me at the photoshoot and now at this roaming project... argh~

afterwhich, the coordinators invited me up to the staff office for some Sakae Sushi!~ :p *slurp~ its been a blessing to be a SIM student and moreover, having such impromptu "treats" oh my, i think only parentheses come to my mind to express my gratitude and appreciation for everything. Thanks SIM and each and everyone thats been there to encourage and support me! muacks~

Goodwood Park Mooncake

2009-09-04T10:31:00.005+08:00

its finally here!

O thy love, thy been lusting after thou art since our last rendezvous. How tender and soft are thou lovely skin, it makes thy heart grow weary in waiting. Everyday passes so slowly and alas! All said has indeed become passe coz it is all worthwhile... thy love, whom thy so desire and yearn for....

the durian fillings.... it makes you go ohhmmmmm~ HOLY MAMA~

oh my, oh my... i have been waiting for these yummilicious mooncakes since last year very first encouter with them. it is really nice and till this year, i can still vividly remember prima facie - the taste, the texture, the smell, the aura... gosh, i fell seriously in love with them after that very experience.

I Knew i had to get them this year and although its a month away from mooncake festival, i was least bothered by it and the comments i was going to get. nonetheless, i made my way the very last day of their best promotional price to get a total of 8 boxes! wahaha~ :D

i got 1 durian, 1 mango & pomelo, 2 boxes of assorted ones consisting the durian, mango & pomelo, soursop and cempedak.

alright, tasting:

Durian - "How could I live without you, i want to know~"

Mango & pomelo - "you touched my heart, with your sweetness and love~"

Soursop - "i have lied down, on green pastures, riding on the horse to a far far land...~"

Cempedak - "such refreshing touch, i've never had...~"

*the durian res ipsa loquitur...

its really nice~ and i simply love it.... the durian will make your knee go begging.... lol~ do try them, they have a 15% for DBS, UOB, Citibank cards now till i think 1st Oct. >15boxes will have free delivery. Goodwood for the win~

Moshi iglaze

2009-09-04T10:21:00.003+08:00

I was thinking to go for a change for my iphone aft using the belkin silicon for abt 2 months :p
shimin wanted to buy 1 so i decided to go for it since i was buying fr an online friend whom i bought my moshi ipouch from. anyway, i simply love this case although it doesnt offer the same protection as my belkin that protects the silver lining around the screen but it makes the iphone feel so slick and nice to hold. the silicon case i had previously didnt feel as nice as before which prompted me to switch (or maybe its just an excuse =X) anyway, hope this will last a long bit. i'm actually looking at the LV one..... =X *bling bling~

Happy Birthday Andy!

2009-09-01T09:34:00.003+08:00

sorry, its a late post! sorry guys~ (i just the pics on my iphone...) sometimes it gets to you when you carry a couple of phones because one has a better camera resolution and the other is a multi-entertainment device... =X anyway, pics away!!~ :)

Bakerzin's Tiramisu

I didnt take much pics as i dare not take out my poor resolution 3GS out to fight SE and Nokia. most of the pics should have been on FB so ya. thanks for making this party a bang, courtesy of Andy because its really been awhile since so huge a group went for an outing and i simply love the steamboat with my taukees :p and ash was busy peeling the prawns for all to eat (0_o'''). the shop uncle was funny when we asked him to help us take a picture and he exclaimed,"一定会拍好, 拍到我的炉最好." and we all burst out laughing coz it was really funny although we knew what was on uncle's mind.

i love the entire concept that its open space and the whole place seems so retro; like those you would only see in HongKong dramas. lol~ i would definitely be back with other friends and the food is good. price-wise is also rather cheap, i think there's 2 pricing for weekdays and weekends. the place is located at AMK hub.

it was a treat from Andy, thanks bro! have a blessed 2009/2010. may your endeavours come to pass!! :)

R Burger

2009-08-31T14:28:00.003+08:00

I was running an errand to Goodwood Park Hotel to get some mooncakes for my friends where i decided to drop by Ion to check out some stuff then something came to my mind: hey, why dont you try the long-awaited R burger!? :p

Bought the original R burger since it was my first and i was really excited to try it as soon as i could since i read and heard many good reviews on it. i went back to office to snap some photos before i try it out =x

the burger is nicely wrapped the way you would find the rice burgers at MOS burger. i like the presentation here though. the taste is nice and favourful. i think its well done overall just that i agree with Camembaru's R burger tryout that the meat is simply too "weak"! the Daikon works nicely wonders to edify the entire feasting experience. i took out the Shiso leaves coz it taste weird to me lol~ (mayb coz i'm not a green person). anyway, the burger will garner my thumbs up on an overall tasting experience but like i said, the meat is simply too "weak" meaning that its not satisfying enough to satiate one's appetite. i would love it if its meaty enough for my likings. =X

I would try the Salmon burger when i'm back there again though. cheers~

Dead Sea Scrolls

2009-08-28T23:58:00.002+08:00

I went for the Dead Sea Scrolls Exhibition at the Arts House near Parliament House. its really been a real eye-opener for my friends and i who were there. i decided to blog this 1st ahead of some other due entries coz there're some information that i want to share before i forget. :)

below is the relics used during the historical times where people began to put words into writings. as we know, before paper came along, people already knew how to read and write in various languages. the need to make recordings were definitely important. Therefore people started writing and make records using various methods available and in the early days, they engraved words on these relics that were founded by archeologists in Qumran where the Dead Sea Scrolls were. Some of the Scrolls found were actually kept in clays and pottery in order to preserve the life-span.

Below are Fragments of the bible that we are reading today. in total, there were approx. 18,000 many fragments found in Qumran and experts and archeologists began work to piece these fragments together and later, in these different readings pieced together, only 200 scrolls consist of religious writings. majority of it recorded interesting and mundane things that included cooking recipes, day-to-day life experiences and events etc.

the archeologists also found out that records and writings were also made on animal skins such as camel skins, lamb skins. majority of them were made on lamb skin. experts had to use various methods in piecing the fragments together and the simplest method was handwritings followed by infra-red and DNA-testings. it is a tedious effort and the group of experts, scholars and archeologists spent 60+ years to piece them together and majority of these scrolls and fragments are housed in Israel. Its really a privilege of us to have some of these priceless artifacts, scrolls and fragments be exhibited here. below, its the Scroll of the first 5 books of the Old Testaments; Genesis, Exodus, Leviticus, Numbers and Deuteronomy. this was recorded 250 years ago.

the below piece of artifact is something really interesting. this piece of scroll is the 1st bible to leave earth to go to the moon. i cant remember who's the guy who brought this bible to the moon but of u do visit this Exhibition, you'll be able to know this incredible gentlemen. the Curator elaborated to us that the reason why he brought it to the moon instead of other things that was on the space rocket's payload was because," he wanted it to be as close to God as possible than any other things." interesting fact. :)

the next item you see below here is one of the most important bibles written and translated in history. This bible is the 1st bible to be translated into a combination of Latin and Greek by Euramus(i hope i get it right). This gentlemen, known by theologians and archeologists as "The man who knew everything" was a scholar, a scientist and a mathematician. He was really a smart guy who decided why cant the bible co-exist in both language. you gotta pay attention here is that, at the moment of time, Latin was the common language in many countries. This guy is really important because of him, Martin Luther somehow got hold of his book and later translated it into English and most of us know how powerful the man Martin Luther was. Martin Luther later gave away the book to Willian Tyndale.

John Calvin. This guy, you really gotta applaud him. the 1st bible to enter Geneva, Switzerland. This gentlemen here took great pains to bring the work of Euramas, Martin Luther and Tyndale into Geneva during the era of Queen Mary who is commonly known as "Bloody Mary" today. the rest is history. Later, John Bunyan managed to get hold of this book during the pit of his life and he later wrote the "pilgirms progress" which is till today a widely popular book about his life where he went through a broken family, to his life in jail. i'm gonna get hold of that book for sure.

the 1st bible translated into spanish. also another historical fact thats cause worthy of making a exclamation. the gentlemen, (think Corosis) is the man who brought a revolution in this area.

A pic of the famous Martin Luther.

i think its really been an incredible and exasperating experience for me. the curator for this entire exhibit painted a clearer picture how the Dead Sea Scrolls came about, what the writers, scholars, archeologists, theologians and leaders of each era did and went through. till today, the bible is still the best seller worldwide. The Dead Sea Scrolls held the most original works of the book of Isaiah which was totally intact at its discovery together with many fragments of the Psalms, also known as the poetry of the bible.

During 1611, when the 1st King James bible was compacted and sold, on the NY Times, it was an immediate hit and top the charts which till today, this legacy lives on. it took 54 of the best scholars employed and searched by King James to translate the 1st english bible and a "2nd" version ot revised version from its 15kg, 17 inch size to a smaller and more compact size that proved to be a "hit" amongst people.

Amazingly, i began to wonder the incredible factual findings made by various people and even began question how the compilation of the bible came about. it makes you want to find out more and deeper in depth. Scrolls were originally used by historians to make recordings based on their experiences and yet, the bible and its scrolls were actually repeated being recorded and written in its original form till today. i began to wonder the amazing works of God and men that created this beautiful work of a simplified theologic version of "Change of Place" & "Change of Person". The bible consisting of the old testaments and the new testaments comprising of 66 books.

please do visit this exhibition because its really interesting and enriching. it really opened my eyes to want to understand history, theologies and christianity on a higher level.

Cruise Trip

2009-08-28T09:55:00.003+08:00

i was invited to join some friends for a one day cruise away fr the hectic life in singapore out there in the sea!! it was my inaugural cruise trip and i was really really excited about it. i think overall the experience was really cool and plus it was plain dirt cheap.... =X i was so excited to go explore the entire ship after alighting on it some a boat. rushed down fr JW service just in time to take the boat to leave Singapore. it was a fun time spent with some friends and its been fun knowing some of ya in depth. lets do this about every 1-2mths for a short getaway from boring boring Singapore!! :D

Gambling King 赌神风 "Leonard" - 有钱不赌,对不起父母!!!! :p

Lucky Boy "Me" =X

i love the deck where i enjoy the breeze and look wide into the open sea and begin to experience unexpressable feelings that i simply cant put it in words. its really so relaxing where you can literally feel your body elevated. its really a "wow" experience (call me noob).... anyway, i hope to do this every 1-2mths just for the sake to getaway. this getaway allowed me to cool my mind from all that hectic schedules and commitments i had. simply allow your body and heart to take control rather than your head. :)

Impromptu Manpuku

2009-08-27T10:08:00.003+08:00

Mango Strawberry Tart
met up my friend for dinner last wk. we decided to head to Manpuku since its one of my goals to "conquer" all its lovely tarts! like again, i was not going to have the mains here anyway and the main aim is the Tarts!!! i was browsing and admiring the tarts whilst making my mind on which 1 to go with :p

my friend had ramen. i was like again, busy snapping away with my worthy cam phone. iphone is really not for photo takings apart fr some impromptu pics with good lightings. otherwise, the photo quality is really ermm.... =_='''

lol~ the mango and strawberry was my pick! bundled with a camomile clear tea which wasn't my cup of tea afterall =X but the tart was as usual good with the wholesome-ness of its fruits! :) love the entire tart to its last, chatted with auntie who was cutting the tarts and preparing the "garnishes" of the plate with all that nice artistic finishes. oooolala~ the whole feel will probably drive the girls crazy! lol~

my friend had the orange and grapefruit which i didnt snap since i had an earlier entry on it already. thats still on my favourite tart list! pls go thru my earlier entry for a detailed review! :)

*i'm thinking of migrating my foodie entries to a dedicated foodie blog, do not know if i should.... do leave me some comments if you think my foodie trysts deserves a new blog or be left here on this blog itself! i'm not wimpy... =X

2009-08-26T12:42:00.003+08:00

feeling unwell since last night after i reached home... :(
think it really turns me off to fall sick on such an untimely period. although i'm going through my school holidays but man, i still need to work and fulfill my appts. been praying for 3 items thats been on my mind and doing some preparation for something thats coming up in a couple of weeks already.... really not the time for me to be unwell.... Argh~

will be heading down to get mooncakes later on during lunch. i wont say much but will still do a brief review on these lovely mooncakes since they're simply too good to be missed. that aside, there's this verse that keeps revolving in my head," what profits a man if he gains the whole world but loses his soul."

i do not know how come this verse keeps appearing in my head but I believe there's a reason behind it. mayb i'll do simple evaluation on my take on this verse.

so many times or too often, we see ourselves chasing after things that we deem it good or best for ourselves, our family, our careers etc. be it what ever reasons it maybe. i read this book "Driven by eternity" by John Bevere where i vet through it since my friends wanted to borrow it. it brings to my remembrance how we all work so hard to build towers and treasures of wealth, status, fame etc or even in search for that someone. at the end of the day, do we truly find fulfillment, take joy, pleasures in attaining or achieving these? yes, no doubt we need to have excellence and diligence in the things we do but yet, is this truly what we seek?

i shared a story with one of my friend about the vision i'm going after for 2009, and in return, i asked about what her vision/dream is be it short or long term. Then she said her's is not as exciting as mine but i said that it doesn't really matter if its exciting or not. We got to be people that's creating a legacy for people and our descendants to remember! when we're at our deathbed reminicsing about our life, will we regret if we missed out on certain things, what things we should have done or be doing at a certain point of time whatsoever.

in life, there're simply too many regrets and things we want to do and achieve and yet, will we truly achieve those things and if they really worthwhile or not? the answers lies in you and varies from indivdual to individual as well. My point here is, if one really wants to run after a dream, a vision, let it drive him/her and be cause-worthy. Like John Bevere, Driven by eternity.

some foodie entries coming up in a couple of days time! :)

Marketplace Convention Part 2-Leadership

2009-08-24T22:03:00.004+08:00

In my earlier post, its important to understand the importance of a person's character and the need for building relationships as an ongoing basis. we understand that it takes character to sustain the level of influence and power in our lifes. knowing this as the fundamentals, we move on to Leadership. we're created to take dominion. in the beginnings, Adam was told to take dominion over the land God created and every living creature on earth. it still bewilders me that Adam was able to name and stand before every living creature and name them.

many speakers this days talk about the power of the mind. indeed the mind is a powerful tool and thus, we need to be able to utilize it properly in order to bring about the influence we want. Our Thought-life that determines our success. it is what determines our thinking; likewise to one's home, and it will determine the environment we will grow and live in.

determining the foundations, we got to be spontaneous about it. the only way we can be spontaneous is when you're prepared for it. Preparation comes when there's order. Therefore its important to be organized so that you can respond quickly and spontaneously. this is an area many leaders and managers lack. its crucial as order brings consistency -> security -> stability.

*Side note: every compromise we make is due to lack of trust in god. the basis of every idolatry; be it money, sex, fame and real idols, are because people find comfort and some forms of answer from these for temporal solutions. we got to move from short term to long term and it takes a high level of faith to trust God because majority of the time, its against Norms. my opinion, Who Cares!

Therefore, if you're already in a position of influence/power, you're a role model whether you like it or not. And thus a high level of self-control is expected of you. A constant test of leadership is on your ability to keep your cool especially under pressures. An important thing is NEVER get your ego involved which even myself fail on several occasions. A renown figure, Moses, failed in this area because he was frustrated with the Israelites (if you read in Numbers 20). He failed to obey due to his frustrations and thus brought God to his level infront of the Israelites because of unbelief, pride and anger. as you read on, Moses didnt manage to enter the promise land. therefore, if you cant have the character, consistency and spiritual discipline, do not be a leader.

Many people chooses to grow on a pace where after a period of time, they take a break or rest. later the simply go back to the starting point and start climbing again like a triangle. This is a vicious cycle because this thing becomes a comfort zone. if you plot it on a graph, it will look exactly like a person's heartbeat or a normal economic cycle of ups and downs. is this the way you may ask? definitely not! Growth should move a way that there're no plateaus, learn to pace yourself and never rest for too long, keep on moving, like a staircase where u move slowly on the horizontal line and rise again when you're ready to move on the vertical line. We live life on levels and experience life in stages

take extra care when entering any business dealings even with the closest people you may have. ensure that there's a contract, rather than a relational or mutual agreement because the contract protects the relationship. If there's a monetary change of hands based on Trust (w/o contracts), be sure that you're ready to lose it. Remember to have the level of wisdom and shrewdness as a serpent BUT not its values and character.

Earlier, we discussed about the importance influence and the need to influence others and build relationships with opposing values. although we seek the above but yet, we should never, i emphasize, never impose your values, personal consecration on others. the essence here is never stumble others. this is the difference between having standards and being legalistic where the former speaks about being not rigid and is flexible. Rigidness breaks. allow your personal consecration to shine!

We should rest but not allow it to become a period of inactivity.
**EBB & FLOW - A recurring & rythemic pattern of coming and going; declining and growth.**
(Life and Business is about Ebbing and flowing, an upward movement of growth despite times of decline)
We all go through various Seasons in life and this is a constant cycle we all have to experience:
-Summer (Productivity) : our gifts/talents/abilites flourish - "Fruitfulness"
-Fall (Transition) : Change from a state/condition to another - "A time of struggle"
->Gifts/Talents/Abilities are hidden and underestimated
->Allows us to re-examine/re-evaluate our true motives/motivation UNDISTRACTED
->Why? our gifts/talents/abilities can blind us and become something we go after instead
->It allows us to focus on our character, deepening of character.
-Winter (Rest) : Purifying of faith, strengthening of character, conserving of energy, preparation fo future; not a place of inactivity but helps us look forward to the future.
-Spring : Time of New beginning, New growth, New Birth

therefore barrenness does not equate death, as long there's life, it will become fruitful again!
Wilderness is your friend because its a place of solitude, refuge, reflection and rest. its a place of Fall and Winter season. Ebb & Flow. the Flow prepares us for a time to Ebb. Life is not simply about Spring time but the four seasons where one goes from Summer->Fall->Winter->Spring.

Its always Ebb & Flow...

Lastly, a small note is that, leaders will and need to understand the Power of Goal-setting. i won't elaborate on this part, no reasons given :p but remember that movement does not equate progress where most people makes this simple mistake. this matrix where the environment and programs/activities both envelop people as the heart of all plans, goals.

Remember, the choices we make in life is going to cost something and mean something.

*i hope this series on Character and Leadership will assist you in life and help you progress in your ministry and career. ultimately, i believe one should create a legacy for himself/herself because we want to leave behind something people will remember us for. People will only remember 2 things, the good and the bad you've done. Life progress in levels and arrive in stages. Your Attitude will determine your Altitude. Many thanks to Dr A.R. Bernard and Dr Kong for your constant new revelations and words of wisdom that have brought me to where i am today. i'm still constantly learning and indeed information/knowledge is power. Character and Wisdom is indeed the key of balance.

Marketplace Convention Part 1-Character

2009-08-23T22:04:00.002+08:00

Marketplace = Family, Government, Spirituality, Education, Arts, Media, Mass Communications

This term above defines how the world functions or orbits around where business is being done. No one individual is spared from engaging the marketplace unless he/she chooses to isolate in seclusion whatsoever. This is where people will look for a Standardization of a particular language. The term "Kosmos" is defined as culture. Before we proceed, we need to understand the term Marketplace in more detailed form.

Marketplace is
1) the Interpreter of supply and demand (it defines what's hot and what's not)
2) the Sphere of Intangible values that competes for acceptance.
the latter, where relatively crucial, is where youngsters (mainly) live out these values. And influence shapes values.

why study all these? because its important to understand these and deal with/build relationships with people that have opposing values to you. many a times, we want to convert people; whatever reasons it may be, to our thinkings, habits, preferences and it only backfires. its not just about conversion but influencing. We got to use our belief/faith, live it out and influence.

Influence = the ability not just to affect, but have an effect on 3 areas.
*a) Character (an individual or situation) - it takes character to influence character*
b) Development (of someone, something, ideas, directions)
c) Behaviour (of people and/or organization)

therefore, one may ask, how do we go from here? The answer is to move forward without compromising mercy and justice. its important for both mercy and justice to go together. Mercy + Justice = Restorative justice, leading to restoration and redemption. (an important aspect because graciousness is what it takes to be a great person especially leaders)

Honor those you want to influence. A saying goes like this that " A man's gift will make room for him". i love to give gifts to people reason being, gifts open hearts. Most people only want to keep and reward themselves and miss out great things in life. some people managed to move a little bit out from that space by honoring those on top but it is important to know that you also need to honor those around him/her. sometimes, we can so coped up with our managers, CEOs, COOs etc that we forget those who are close to him/her. in Management theories, we learnt that those around are closest to the Power core of the management ladder and he/she may have influence over that manager's decision indirectly. therefore, if you aspire to mount the corporate level, remember that you don't just need your managers' support, you need comrades, friends that can rally or give you support. you also never know if one day, you may need someone elsewhere's help.

there're 2 types of power of influence; the invisible and the visible. Influence is 10% visible and 90% invisible. especially if you're in a place of influence, always take extra care in everything you do. we influence people around us unknowingly and subconsciously on a Daily Basis. its a hard truth and even myself need to repent and change in this area constantly.

therefore having said so much, how can we attain a certain level of influence in our lifes? 2 ways.
i) walking in shadows - unintentional benefits of relationships (experience benefits but if the person leaves, no more benefits)
ii) walking in footsteps - by way of life, conduct or action (a person's consecration), leaders are here.
-never live in a person's shadows. -> this happens so often...
We need to know the importance of growing our influence though following th footsteps of others. Don't ride on others' success, create your own! There'll always be tension between those in shadows and those in footsteps. True success comes and resides in a person's Character.

Several important points to take note.
-Relationship precedes ministry and/or business.
-Success comes through Service + Integrity.
-Promotion comes from Service and Integirty.
why are we studying all these? because integrity is the core of character. Honesty is core of Integrity and integrity begets Trust. and its important to know all these because all of us will face constant attacks and tests of our integrity. There's a price to pay to walk in integrity and Values is about what Price we're willing to pay for integrity. Honesty is not the best policy but the ONLY policy.

when we go through false accusations, the way we handle it brings out our character and purges your relationships. it will help you discover who your true friends are. therefore, its important to choose the right relationships and friends. when the wrong people comes into your life, it makes your life sad. but even so, we will never stop building relationships inlife because its like staple food for our lifes. the need to build relationships and through them, influence.

a side note: Christianity is about 2 things - Theology of Person (Change people), Theology of Place (Change place and society). its been long that many churches isolate/alienate themselves and its people from the rest of the world. they preach separation but practise isolation and it has created such a barrier that people fear to engage christians and christians dislike engaging the people. as such, how do we fulfill the Great Commission.

Relationships is how the marketplace or world functions. the differences between seasons of life is a person/people. the differences between success and failure is a person/people. People is both answer and problem. this is something important that we all got to embrace whether you like it or not. Relationship precedes ministry and businesses. and also the right and wrong relationships can come at the same time. when a wrong relationship occurs, the person will never leave voluntarily. humans have this uncanning ability to adapt and if you're not careful, you can adapt to that person's presence and it can affect your life, future, destiny. therefore you got to make a choice to remove him/her/them or remove yourself.

all successes comes through a process of purification/purgification and it comes with a price. Nelson Mandala, from prisoner to president and it is the first ever. we got to adjust the way we think. when people do wrong things, we need to understand the motivation behind it. this is where it matters the most. In US, courts determines the sentencing of a criminal based on his/her motivation behind the act. Most of the time, none of us struggle with the black and white region in life but rather its the grey area.

i learnt a hard truth and really brought about a paradigm shift in my thinking. i'm a workaholic in nature so i can work for hours without stopping. actually i took up 2 jobs and had to study in the evening during a span of 3-4months period couple of years back. i wanted to earn more money and i thought it was good. some close friends who knew about it said i'm crazy coz i had to juggle 2 jobs and my studies in the evening. it didnt matter much but the matter of fact is, we're actually paid not by/for our time, but rather for our value. taking on extra jobs only diminishes our value by compromising our health.

as we move on in life, most of us will definitely come to a certain level of influence and power. it takes character to balance that power. it is believed that currently, its not an economic crisis but rather a crisis of power without character where we see great managers and leaders fall. Franklin Roosevelt,"To mentor a person in mind and not in moral is creating a menace in society". it is easy to go to a position of power/influence but it takes character to sustain. Character brings about order and stability. the world is in a chaotic situation and really, how much order and stability is being searched and look for. people want to know when the economy will be back and runnning, when stocks will recover and bounce back, when retrenchment will cease, when employment will boom again, when business will prosper once more. there're so many chaos and questions and yet, what we get are simply, improved forecasts after forecasts.

Order and Discipline -> Consistency -> creates Security -> creates Stability -> strengthens relationships.

a common complaint amongst women is that men are inconsistent beings. women looks if men consistently fulfills his word in the relationship because inconsistency breeds insecurity and instability. we need to urgent in bringing a whole new standard of character.

Million-Dollar View

2009-08-21T10:52:00.002+08:00

met up some friends after bible study at Riverwalk. this is my first time up here. its like a haven!! lol~ i'm gonna keep you guys in suspense by not revealing anymore info. been a very blessed week so far coz amazing things is beginning to take place and i see great things are gonna come really soon. simply thankful to all those who are with me or have rallied and helped me so much. really thanks thanks thanks.

anyway, i have a long overdue post which i promised last week so it will be coming up by sunday coz i've pushed all appts anyway except for one VVIP appt in the evening for a short while. lol~ =X another week coming to an end so fast!! my holidays are approaching its demise!!! Argh~

Lazy Sunday chillout Part 2

2009-08-21T10:04:00.003+08:00

We headed over to Clarke Quay for some desserts. today's itinerary is wholly planned by Tricia btw! credits to her some all this nice nice places. we headed to Nectarie. its a nice place to sit down on a lazy sunday with some friends, enjoying the companionship and the scenary of a laid back Clarke Quay. Clarke Quay in my opinion is a "happening" place where many party-goers go to hit the pubs and clubs like Zirca, Lunar, Harry's, Arena etc. Clarke Quay in such a laid back manner feels so nostagic actually! lol~ even on every wed when i past by here, its still a whole lot contrary to what's on a sunday afternoon!

what we had!

tarts

personally, i'm a very pastry person so therefore am rather selective and particular in this area of tasting. anyway, that aside, i feel the cake is not bad, its rich in valrhona chocolate and cut in a way that its just nice for one portion. there's a tint of gold on the raspberry which undoubtingly enhances the entire cake since its in a dark tone and brings out an aura of excellence. still, i think canele will win in taste and texture. =x

the tarts are nice! i thumbs it up for them here! both tarts are nice and are able to hold its own grounds with their individualistic specialness. i like the tarts over the cakes. they do not serve water so we shared a bottle of Fuji water and a pot of refreshing tea.

i simply love the ambience there. this is the most memorable part for me apart from all the good food. the entire experience set me back to apply total "braking" for my life and i hope i could make time come to a stand-still. Additionally, it made me forget my tiredness i was feeling throughout from the start till the very end. i feel that my life is entering a whole new phase where i experience life's pleasures amidst all the hectic schdules and commitments. it seems that truly,

"Beloved, I pray that you may prosper in all things and be in health, just as your soul prospers"

3 Jn 2

*their macaroons are having discount for a period of them for all you macaroon-lovers out there! :)

Lazy Sunday chillout Part 1

2009-08-21T09:44:00.004+08:00

just came back fr a one night cruise trip with some colleagues (will uppload some pics fr another phone soon). really am dead beat coz didnt sleep well on board and only slept a mere meagre 2hrs.... supposely meet one friend to interview him over breakfast but i overslept when i got back to take a 2hr nap. anyway, the moment i got up, i've got to rush for a lunch appt with some classmates, tric, jack, shane and david. plus it was david's post-bday celeb today so yeah....

headed over to irish bar at circular as recommended by tricia. nv been there before so was quite excited since i was hungry actually =x

fish & chips

irish stewBangers and chips

it was an eye-opener for me since i've never been to and irish bar/restaurant/bistro to dine before. the irish stew is really nice but not for those who dislike lamb meat but its really good especially when you combine it with the whip potato that comes with it with the stew sauce.

the bangers; i thought it was "atas" sausage" but i was wrong!! lol~ its like some pork but minced in a way that when u bite it, the banger taste "separates" in your mouth and so chewy that i fell in love with it instantaneously! :) the chips are those big types which i tried before at my friend's western store at Kim Tian which so far, this is the 2nd place i tried before, big fat ones like wedges... nice! the fish is nice and i simply love it here coz its so cosy, service is exceptionally hospitable and i give this place a thumbs thumbs up! will definitely come back with other friends.

we had some beer with the food after and chatted abit before heading over to Clarke Quay for desserts. OOPS! =X

food for thought 2

2009-08-13T14:45:00.001+08:00

"God did not promise days without pain; laughter without sorrow; sun without rain - But He did promise strength for the day, comfort for the tears, and light for the way."

i was surfing for some guitar chords when i came across this quote on a person's siggy. i think it brings such heartwarming touch that you will just feel relieve that all's well. Bad things do happen to good people but yet, do we just sulk, play a pity-party game or worse, curse and swear?

i was having a meeting yest with the rest of the CGCs and i think i come to realize that Hanxian is really an amazing person inasmuch most of the time we don't see the things he goes through and i really wish that i had the eyes of love to see all he's going through. people is our source of solution and equally the source of problems. but much said, how we can be the balancing beam?

i think we gotta really either have a BIG heart, or others call it, a heart of gold. experts says it takes a lifetime to study human and even when one reaches the pinnacle of his/her study about human behaviour, a whole new set of standards, paradigm shifts will simply crush that set of theology or research done.

i think we can learn through a beautiful theolgy of a great Man. to forgive 7 times and not just that but 70 times 70 times. this equates to an eye-popping 490times. there's really no formula or strategy that can deemed "best" yet this above choice of the heart will definitely bring much to a person's life.

yest, a sensitive was posed before me and i pondered for a sec if i should answer yet i knew I had gained victory which warrants me more than glad to answer. i walked out of my circumstance because of 2 important decisions i made: 1st, i forgave and bless; 2nd, i made a firm decision to not be 小心眼 (narrow-minded). the latter was probably the hardest to deal with but my brother has consistently reminded me in this small yet so vital point to me.

the me in late Apr, the me in mid Jul and the me in 13th Aug. I do really wonder these 3 different stages of life experiences i was in; what's the difference(s)?

i'll give the answer of 13th Aug to you all; undoubtingly exasperatingly grateful. :)

food for thought

2009-08-11T14:48:00.004+08:00

amidst work, i happened to read a good friend's blog entry. it was an entry that i really least expect it. it seems that i'm not fighting the battle alone but having comrades with me.

i have always wondered that whether life is simply about me and myself and things i want to do and achieve. i used to believe that if i want to spend my rest of life with the woman i loved, friends aren't that important after all. it took a real hard knock on my head and a real bad stab into my heart; where i found the true meaning that "we'll leave this world with nothing but the relationships we built here on earth."

yes, indeed i've lost much yet, i dare say that i've gained possibly equally much. my life turned around for a greater purpose and walking right on track and heading to the right direction with true friends that really pick you up and gather around you when you need them.

In life, the decisions we make are indeed important because you don't want to regret it esp when its late in a particular stage of life and make a reroute. I simply love the words that "iron sharpens iron" because thats how life should progress, esp the people you choose to be around. i'll be blogging on two important aspects of life about leadership and character this wk taught by Dr Bernard.

lastly, i thank god for good people around once again, i find heartwarming and a bliss to know that i've good people rallying behind me and giving me the much-needed "reinforcements" and "firepower" to perservere! :)

RADIATE YEAH!~
"life progress in levels but arrive in stages"

Birthdays!

2009-08-10T21:54:00.000+08:00

another late entry meant for 2 wks back! (this was my last lesson before exam)

it was a rush affair for me coz we're supposed to celebrate jack's bday 1 wk earlier but i wasnt in class the prev time. anyway, this proved be more rewarding although we're late but, late better than nothing =X

the class celebrated 3 of these babies birthday and it was so funny coz there was the hello kitty together! i'm really awed by the cohesiveness of the class coz Class B actually waited for us to finish class before they came over, this module, Class B's teacher was "faster" than ours. anyway that aside, guess it was a joyous occasion. i dun fancy bdays but others' bdays are always impt to me coz it meant alot. i think sometimes it takes the lost of someone to make us treasure what's still around us. gotta learn to be more detail in my life and not be complacent!

anyway, happt birthday to you 3 babies! wish you guys a wonderful year ahead, lets cont to forge ahead for a beautiful tomorrow and may all your dreams, endeavours come to pass in this coming year ahead! be blessed~

Crepes - Out of the Pan

2009-08-10T21:46:00.000+08:00

had a lunch appt with a VIP on a friday. (sorry another late blog entry).
it was my 1st trip to Out of the Pan at Raffles City. i have always love to come here to walk about and chill around yet surprisingly, i've never walked into this restaurant right next to the escalator at B1. i guess i didnt really fancy crepes and worse, didnt even know what they offered on its menu, lol~

anyway, this place really impressed me and i can say, it blew me away with their menu. seldom i'm blown away by my food and yet, i simply love the way the ingredients, sauce complemented the crepes. it always appear to me how crepes would feel one's stomach but yet, they proved me so wrong!!

i had the mushroom and ham crepe and my VIP had something i don't know =X but anyway, that's not important... :p i finished my crepes obediently and even felt that the greens on my plate was not to be wasted, i even brought mtyself to finish the greens lol~ the meal was so satisfying, i had to plan the next trip there @_@

had a great and fulfilling lunch added with wise advice from a person i really respected only after just a couple of meetups. i'm looking forward to my next visit here already! ;p

1 Caramel Pastisserie

2009-08-10T21:37:00.001+08:00

i was as usual reading the foodie blogs of my favourite Camembaru and IronLadyChef. they recommended this refined Pastisserie at 1 Handy Road. it was really near and thanks to my iphone, the googlemaps helped to find my way easily there! :p

anyway, i find the cakes there really interesting and pretty. it feels a totally new fusion for its cakes and pastries there and the ambience is simply awesome coz of its refined and subtle decor. i love how they place their products in display and it feels simply cosy and attractive. you'll also find they offer pastas and wining for your dining pleasures. i was there during lunchtime and they seem to be in the midst of putting some finishing touches to there decor. i also love how they pay certain details to make one's dining a fulfilling one.

in the areas of tasting, i find a lil' interesting in the taste of its cake. i would definitely go back to give it another try before i complete my reviews of its cakes. :)
pls do give this place a try if you're looking for ambience, chillouts and a place to sit back and enjoying companionship with your friends. simply love the place.

HoneyComb

Canele Pastisserie

2009-08-10T21:25:00.004+08:00

jupitar

NY cheesecake

blackforest

strawberry shortcake

this is a late late post. bloggers is having some problems which i'm trying to find an email add to email to blogger but simply cant find it.

anyway, this was a 2wk ago visit to Canele at its Paragon outlet. met up some old friends for a catch up. in the end, i agreed to an impromptu short vacation which proved to be timely though i wasn't really keen to begin with. anyway, a much needed break after such a long long time where my last trip was like almost 4yrs back... man, i realize i've been working for a good 5yrs+ already.

anyway, this cakes are awesome and you really gotta try them. apparently, i knew it was good given its renown name but a lil' sceptical after having a rather disappointing cake at 1 Caramel Pastiessrie. anyway, pls do try them and i'm yearning to go back to Canele to try their other cakes and pastas. their macaroons are really famous but for me, i'll stick to their lovely cakes as the macaroons are a lil' too sweet for me. the cakes are smooth and with its valrhona gourment choc ingredients, it proves to be heavenly yet not heavy on your pockets! :)

pisseed

2009-07-29T23:56:00.000+08:00

i wanna blog but apparently stupid blogger is having some problems and i cant blog with pics.... like dat how...

anyway, i'll be blogging some due entries and start on an awesome blog entry thats been awaiting by some close friends. its about the Marketplace Convention I went some weeks back which has been a really life changing experience. anyway, before that. lets wait for blogger.com to wake up their idea and fix the problems first.

cheers~

Stones

2009-07-20T16:21:00.004+08:00

its been awhile since i blogged coz i'm busy with my prep for my exam this coming sat. i was thinking whether should i blog abt this matter thats been on my mind this couple of days but heck, i decided to "rant" about it afterall since its my blog! *like pst; this is my church, i can say what i want!" lol~

anyway, i've been dealt with another blow which i thought i could easily overcome since i discern with a second confirmation fr a dear one some time back. sometimes i believe most think alike that; if possible, one would rather let a premonition not come to pass. i simply overestimated myself and my capacity. the truth only set me back further and this was probably the "finishing blow" for me. it came no better time than a week before my exam likewise 2 months plus ago. if anything is bad, i think this is probably the worse state of mind i'm in. i thought i could be cool about it but i was so wrong.

i began to wonder what have i done to reap such catastropohic fruits. i wanted to cry but it seems that my tears have either dried up or the anger/anguish/despair has flushed in and overtaken my head. i prayed but i couldn't rid my head of possible images even till today. yesterday was worse and i totally couldnt concentrate at all. sat i almost ruin a friend's bday. is this something i deserve, i questioned myself. the belief, vision, dreams and love given to your closet aides and it all came back in a way which haunts you, i simply am exasperated and lost. if you ask me, am i angry, i would give a outright yes and if possible, i wanted to be vengeful. someone told me to get back at them in all sorts of ways but i knew by doing that, i would only hurt and shortchange myself.

Yet, is this how my god will react? that would definitely be a no-no. to repay such outcomes with love is what i'm taught but words are easier said than done. i learnt and been repetitive with my words that love is kind and such words are words that would appear time and again even when ugly images showed themselves in my mind. can i comprehend the situation, i can't and yet i had to deal with them. i could simply label them anything and think the worst of the whole thing and yet, i wanted to shower them with the benefits of doubt even though it pierces my heart deeper and deeper.

i told god: you healed my heart and sew it and now its being stabbed again and torn apart, i cant handle this. If being at the forefront to be a CGL meant so much, can i not be one? but i already had my answers before even i asked because i knew i had to account only to one person. inasmuch it pierces my heart so deep that even i could almost feel it physically, i knew i had to love and forgive and even bless them... as i was in a state of despair, i remembered something which i wanted to share,

to pick up the
1) Stone of the Past-His goodness
2) Stone of Prayer
3) Stone of Priority-God-first
4) Stone of Passion-run on!
5) Stone of Persistence-keep on keeping on

i'm really thankful for Him and all the good people around me once again coz as emotions well themselves up inside this very moment, i couldnt help but want to cry but this i know are tears of joy and victory. Crisis really breaks us but let's champion them! :)

Cedric's Wedding

2009-07-14T22:27:00.003+08:00

attended cedric's wedding on sun, couple days back. man, bro, u shocked me but i'm happy for you! disappeared for a few months and back with a phone call telling me u're getting married!! 0_0

anyway, i'm really really happy for you coz i always hold u dear to my heart. times we went thru together being poor yet happy just talking amongst us 3 with wilson. although we have went on our own ways to create a better future, those are the times i will never forget coz we were poor together but we shared everything. we stayed at one another's place lol~ yew tee, tiong bahru, pasir ris!! lol~

seeing ya getting married really brought lots of emotions to my mind and yet i also wished that i'll be the next one, pity that wont be happening any time soon. =X

as you move on to the next phase of life, i hope and pray for the better of your family and with an additional member. happy to see your mum saying such touching things to you, simply proud of you and everything about you, bro. may god bless and guide your path and everything you do!! a bliss and fruitful marriage and let what god put together, let no man come between!! be blessed! :)

will be concentrating on my exam, wont be blogging for abit. :) cya guys around!

Latest Hoot

2009-07-11T10:03:00.002+08:00

was really looking forward to getting my 1st iphone for a long long time. its really been a rollercoaster fr registering myself at the booth and going back aft cg meeting to collect it. i thk god for giving me favour, protection and guidance else i would proli go back at 3+. i read online that those who came aft 6pm queued for a good 7 hrs. i tot i had to re-queue aft leaving to meet the people. but i decided to try and ask if i could, you know, move foward faster :p

anyway, i paid only a nominal fee of $108 after factoring all the discounts in. real happy coz i wasnt willing to pay so much anymore for a phone. got an additional usb charger for free coz of a $30 voucher fr Singtel. apparently, i spoke to the staff there, they said they hoped to go back at 4am if possible since last yr they worked thru the night till nx morning for a good 24hrs. poor things. my CSO was really friendly and the gal that assisted me with payment was really a nice lady. i always tot that the younger generation are a bunch of insensitive, immature kids tat have yet to see reality but this lady brought a new insights to me and i pray, she will soar to greater heights! :)

will be heading over to singtel to get another sim card with the same number to use the iphone since i'll b using 2 phones concurrently. the iphone will be my entertainment gadget. lol~ den heading over to challenger to get a nice casing to protect the phone! for now, Iphone FTW!!

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